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Well I went up to my friend and asked him why he wasn't at school yesterday and he told me he didn't feel like coming to school obviously...

So then he starts asking me how things are going with the red head, and I asked him "What do ya mean?" and he started going off on me about things like:
"Ya know I saw her with some dude all feeling up on her and kissing her"
I wanted to yell at him "What the ******** dude? I don't wanna hear that s**t! Just because I have a crush on her doesn't mean crap! How can you possibly find enjoyment in making me sad when you know I already feel crappy already from what I see and think about?"

Because to be honest I always think of everyone and I mean EVERYONE and when I am not doing anything like posting, or talking, walking, ec.t everything besides sitting down and waiting, makes me think and when I think I always think of the bad and what I don't wanna hear. Now by doing that I get really sad and I start thinking of bad things like now its not everyone but 1 person in a couple should die. I want to kill the male or female of the couple. So instead of taking action, getting mad, or crying I will, like always, forget it or just keep thinking about it till times up and I just walk away.

So anyways back to my friend there.....so instead of reacting, I tell him the normal "Eh...not really" and so he gets up and takes me to where she hangs out and from a distance he makes me watch her with the guy shes with. After wards the bell rings and we walk away. He constantly asks if I saw them and I keep telling him no. which is of course a lie. So anyways I get to my class (it was the wrong class, I was supposed to go to fourth period but I went to 6th instead) so I sit down and think and think about what I saw and how much I wanted to kill that guy and everyone else I saw at this school making out gonk but of course a old friend of mine snapped me out of it "Daniel! Daniel what are you doing here?" then I got up and walked quickly to 4th period b4 the last bell rang.

I don't know, its a pain to deal with. I just hope I get a tumor soon or something, I wanna know what that feels like xd