Today I had my last talk with Ketobie. He and I will be apart for just over 9 weeks. No talking at all. Maybe some snail mail. He'll be in basic training for the Army. It's going to be hard... But we've done this before.
I got into an accident. According to witnesses, when the light turned red, I gave too much gas to turn left, slipped on a wet road and spun. I spun completely around and hit the median on the otherside of the intersection. I hit another car that sat in the left lane. Life has been hell and stress since then. I am still dealing with the shock and terror. The guilt. I have to pay a 200 buck ticket. And insurance hikes, and prolly my liscense. So much money, so much stress, and all for something that I cannot even remember fully. I just was so happy that I finished dropping my timeslips off so quickly, and that, I would be home to talk to Ketobie soon. Bah.
Work wants to fire me. I've been late too many times. Their expectations are very high. they phone me at ten to six expecting me to get to a destination by 8 that takes almost two hours to get to. They don't realize that I have to still get ready... So I'm treading thin ice. It's scarey every morning. I really can't afford to lose this job, not now. Especially not now.
Life is a ball of stress. But I'll manage. Everyone has done it before, and so now I have my turn. If I b***h, scream, panic, freak out, or simply just cry in your presense, I am sorry. I am so sorry.
So sorry.
 Silent Flame · Thu Apr 26, 2007 @ 05:13am · 3 Comments |
