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Life's gifts and sorrows...
The things in life that seem to just pop into my head. My third personality at its best. Everything written is all opinion from my perspective, as someone with a childish spirit and hidden thoughts.
Un-understandable (Most important entry in awhile)
For a long time I never really understood anything. I'm not good at being positive, since the worst things always seem to get the best of me. I used to always give in to whatever bad thing that happened. I guess I gave up after hearing our teacher died, and I let the sadness just build up until all I could do was yell and argue with people. That was the thing that haunted me for the longest amount of time. I've been ungrateful for the precious things I have and I'm sorry for that. I used to think that nobody cared just because of a few stupid problems. I can't force people to like me for who I am, and I've always felt that nobody did. But things are so easily overlooked.

If you blame yourself, you'll slowly die on the inside. I'm dramatic, and I know that. But it's hard if you can't cry that often, and you've lost someone and blame yourself for it. I yell at people, and get angry easily because I know I can't cry over it. I've always been afraid of crying in front of so many people because I used to do that a lot. It's not very hard to make me cry. I'm crying right now, and I don't even know why.
And now, to know that there are people that care and to know that I was too afraid to see it makes me want to cry even more. But I'm laughing. I'm laughing at everything I always cried about. I'm laughing because I convinced myself that I was depressed. I'm laughing because I always hated myself for not being good enough. I don't draw as good as my friend, and so I hated her for it because I was jealous. But I couldn't hate her because she's one of my friends. Plus, she tends to show off, and that adds on.
(Recently Added)
But it's ridiculous. I won't give up on writing, since it's something I love. After all, why give up on a dream? People may laugh at me, people can call me stupid, but they're not worth my time. A certain someone's trying to pull strings until everything falls apart. But I've got something to tell you. Your pathetic attempt to break a friendship stronger than you'll ever have isn't going to work.

Some Person

oh and jasmine
sayin that mj doesnt care enuff to talk to brigette
shame on u
wtf is the problem wit u and mj
do u not like the guy jus becuz him and brig were together
or do u like him urself and thats why ur tryin to break em up icon_crying.gif icon_crying.gif icon_crying.gif
ohh booo hooo
thats rubbish
jus respect their decision
dont go eggin brige on and sayin
"oooo blah blah blah, he dont care about u so he dont talk to u""
if i remember correctly
ur the one who wanted to send brigette a howler thingy from the harry potter website sayin "ur as ugly as a troll"
friggin hypocrite
omg
we have enuff drama in this class already
we dont need any of this
"oohhh no one doesnt like us"
crap
if u want to go sulk about being shy and sing out ur sorrows and stuff
its called "the shower" or "the blues cafe"
lol
and dont be sendin bak a message gettin mad becuz
thats jus gonna be proving what im sayin
icon_blaugh.gif

hahahaha


Now, if you cared enough to read this whole thing, I want to say I'm sorry, and that you're a true friend. God bless you.






User Comments: [2]
salzalover
Community Member





Sat Apr 28, 2007 @ 06:00am


its ok. i forgive u for all the crazy things. i dont blame u for anything at all. i do the same thing with crying cept i dont mind crying in front of people. u have to let it all out and not care u have to make urself not care and let it flow out. trust me its not healthy to keep it in. i did that and it does exactly wat u said it kills u to the point of exhaustion from anything mentally or physically.I'm here and everyone else is too. i dont even knoe if that made sense.


The Brige
Community Member





Sat Apr 28, 2007 @ 07:53am


Jasmine, i can see now...i understand...i think we're feeling the same thing...
ya, and like you said...we should do somethin...


User Comments: [2]
 
 
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