No see the emotional battles I have to fight everyday. The past that doesn't seem want to go away. It hurts to know that I have to eal with these things and never really experience the true feelings of being happy. If I do it won't last long. Something bad always seem to catch up to me. It makes me very sad that this happens. The battles wiht emotions and the battles with the heart. A monster grows inside me that loves to torture me. An angel dies inside me that hates to see me tortured. Everything with my brother, my mother, my father and now my poor half sisiter. My half sister....Not even born yet....not even born yet...to suffer threw being hated by my own brother. I feel bad for what I do to friends. I trie to survive the days without looking at a knife in pleasure. It a battle that never seems to amaze me. But then I think of my friends. Especially my best friend. Rachel..... She gave me a reason not to cut. She gave me a reason not to look at one in pleasure. Instead she made me look past that. To experience the means of true happiness. She makes me happy more than one times. Even sometimes we fight like hell. We always seem to get back together. She care about me as I care about her. She made me see the monster and face it. She made me help the angel that dies within the bounderies of my heart. THank you rachel. Thank you for making me see the good things about me. Thank you.
 Narutos Mommy · Sat Apr 28, 2007 @ 09:37pm · 0 Comments |
