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i thought you were the wun. i thought you would be the perfect wun. i thought you would never leave me. but i guess i thought wrong. everything i thought ,, was wrong. you left me just like that ,, on a day where i thought i was really happy to see you ,, but later on ,, you just leave me. you say that you didn't like me anymoa. and i thought that would be my best day of my life ,, coz i got to spend alot of time with you at school. but i thought wrong. it was a bad day. the worst day ever. i always wanted to be with you and stay with you forever ,, but i guess you just didn't have anymoa love for me. i know you went for another girl in the middle of our relationship while i was banned from using the comp. when you told me about it you made me cry. you broke my heart. how could you do that to me. you knew i was really caring for you and wouldn't leave you for wun second ,, but you just went for another girl while i was gone. i know you apologised ,, but how could you do that. i thought you would never cheat on me like that. i guess ,, nothing would ever go the way i want it to be. i still love you moa than ever ,, but i don't think you would ever go back for me. i'll never win you back. but i hope you'll go back for me ,, some day. we always had happy times together. we always had fun talking to each other on the fone ,, on the net and at school. whenever you or me came online ,, we would always use capital letters and say our names. and say "i missed you so much" or "ily!! <3" but that would never happen the way it did ,, ever again. i always thinked of you before i went to sleep. i thought about you everyday ,, 24/7. but now that has ended. i'm still in love with you but i know your not loving me no moa. i know you have said that when i see the other side of you ,, how mean you are to your family and other people who you hate ,, i will regret it. i hope i won't see that. you were always my eye candy. you stood out of the crowd at school. whenever i looked for you through a huge crowd throughout everywun at school ,, i would see you first. i would always try to go up to you and say hi. but now ,, whenever i see you at school in a big crowd ,, i'm not bothered to go up to you and say hi to you coz all you'd do ,, is say hi and just walk away. i thought you were the best guy i could ever have ,, not like any of the others i went out with. especially my recent wun. but you ,, you were the best. you cared for me alot ,, said hi to me and never ignore me. you have ignored me a few times coz you were doing your hw and studying for a test. and when i finally got to go back on the comp ,, which was when you were going for another girl. you ignored me a little ,, but you came back for me. but now ,, you totally ignore me. you don't talk the way we used to. we always had fun and talked alot to each other ,, but now ,, that is just gone. it's faded away. just like how your love for me faded away. whenever i think of you ,, like about the bad times we had and when you ignored me for hours ,, i cry. i even cry when you send me messages or mails. especially really long ,, and sad wuns. you were always my best friend. but now ,, our friendship is fading away. and it's all because of you ignoring me again and again. ever since you stopped liking me ,, our friendship has started to fade really badly. you were my everything ,, you were my eyecandy ,, you were my closest and bestest friend i have had. but all that is now gone. you don't love me no moa ,, which makes me sad. and that's how it's gone. you just ignore and don't like me no moa. our friendship is never coming back. you're still my friend ,, but not as close as before. you're still my everything ,, but not fully everything. only a bit. you're still my eyecandy ,, but it doesn't make a difference. i see you ,, but you don't see me. i still have feelings for you and care for you alot. but you just walk away. just like that. i know you still might have some feelings for me and care for me ,, but i just don't feel it no moa. it's all gone. whenever we had to go somewhere in the holidays and we couldn't be on the net for a few hours with you ,, we would always think about each other HEAPS. we never left each other like that ,, we always at least call each other if we could or at least wait till wun of us comes online and explain why we weren't on the net and apologise for it. we always had a really big relationship between us ,, and always looked out for each other. now that's all faded away. we would at least try and hug each other sometime between school time. sometimes we want to hug each other ,, but somewun always buts in and ruins it. after school when we go on the net we always whine and get annoyed with how people just buts in and wrecks our time together. we always did that. i still remember how about 1 week after we started out together ,, we were at the library. i was doing my work and listening to my friend's MP3. then you came and sat on the ground with me. i was wearing a jumper so i was warm. but i saw that you weren't wearing anything ,, just a school top and school shorts. i touched your hand and it felt cold. so i left my hand there for a few seconds ,, then i felt that you were holding my hand really tight. when i looked at you ,, you would always smile at me happily. i wanted to hold your hand again on the first day back to school. when there was a big crowd in front of the hall to go in. i asked you a question ,, and you tried holding my hand. that was really sweet of you. i wanted to hold your hand all the time. but now that has ended. it would never happen again. and that time when we planned to go to the movies. me and you were really excited about it. i was thinking bout how me and you would be at the movies together ,, alone with nowun else from school who would tease us. i kept thinking bout it and on the night before the day ,, i was really excited. but the next morning ,, when i came online you were online. i asked you to be sure ,, what time we're going. but you apologised and said that your mum didn't let you go. because of your hand. you had a deep cut on your hand from doing woodworking at school. your mum thought you might bump it into something and it might've bleed alot. so your mum didn't let you go. i was kinda disappointed in it ,, but it was alright because it was the right thing to do. it could've started bleeding moa unexpectedly. but we didn't know. at least i was happy enough to talk to you all day on the net. now that doesn't happen. ever. you're too busy talking to your other friends now. you just ignore me. it's like ever since you've stopped liking me ,, i'm being ignored 24/7. like as if i just disappeared ,, and you just don't think about me no moa. i'm always feeling touched by you before ,, like as in when i see you at school or talk to you on the net or anything ,, my heart starts beating really hard. i only feel that whenever i'm excited or really happy to see you. but whenever i see you now ,, just like today when i was watching you do your work at the library ,, my heart stopped beating like mad. it didn't beat so fast. it was just normal. which meant ,, i'm no longer thinking about you like how i did when we were together. this is all i've got to say for now. i don't know what else to say. i still love you ,, but not as how crazy i was in love with you. i know you don't love me no moa. you only love me as a good friend. you love me moa than a friend ,, but not as a crush. this has made me feel depressed. i knew that you were gonna say something that would make me sad when you told me you had to tell me something. when you said that you don't love me no moa ,, i was bursting with tears. ily forever ,, hopefully. ily moa than i like any other guy. but your love isn't going to go back for me. that's just tough luck for me thens. ily millions. </3
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