I want to be loved back so badly. It's never going to happen.
Never nEver NeVer nevEr neveR
My heart is torn up. Because I want to be his only.
Want wAnt waNt wanT
I say I want to be loved back just once. But that's half true. I want him to be the one to do it. It doesn't have to be tonight or tomorrow. I can wait.
It's the fact that it feels like Never is what makes me cry for hours. He'll never change his mind.
It's going to be like this forever. I'll be dedicated, Giving all I can. My feelings won't change, Until I'm thoroughly betrayed.
And in return I'll be empty. There is no 'in return'. And I'll hate
Hate hAte haTe hatE
myself For being so pathetic.
And he'll get tired of how I am. Knowing what I want. How I get sad Almost all the time over this. How I'm paralyzingly selfish. He's better off without me. I've stopped making him happy. Because my heart hurts and I can't keep it to myself. I spread it to him like a manipulative depressive b***h.
why can't he just hate me throw me away make me evolve a little and never let me step out of my library world. For his own good. So he can go on and be happy.
I want him around always because he makes me happy. All I do is drag him down. I am fully aware.
kazuka78 · Mon Jul 30, 2012 @ 04:49pm · 0 Comments |