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Okies. SO! I DID belong to this guild. Adult Comedy Club. It was a really nice club. But I got banned. So yeah... That sucks. I'm a bit ashamed of my behaviour. I had no intentions as coming off easy or loose, or in other words, a woman of ill repute. I sinply misunderstood the pictures being posted and felt comfortable enough (whic anyone that knows me knows that I seldom feel this because of how low my self esteem is) to post mine too. I had misread one of the posts and thought that someone had posted an actual pic of kissing someoe's butt. It was a joke built on top of the joke of the picture (I'd had a disagreement with the owner of the forum on these grounds. Looooong dumb battle. Should have never happened. But I wasn't about to apologize without my intentions and feelings known, and restoration of my honor.). I am by no means a loose girl. I simply have a different personality when I'm on the web. By nature I'm sweet and caring and don't want to harm anyone. On the web I'm a little viscious vixen who only wants to fulfill my own selfish desires.

So it is my fault at overeating and playing into what she was saying. It's my fault for acting immaturely and making her feel dumb. But I can't help the fact that my mind has opened up so much by studying philosophy and having a great and loving boyfriend who knows more about philosophy than my college professors. You get really educated really fast. But I hold fast to what I say. And I was not going to beg in order to remain in the Guild. The Guild and crew have my utmost respect. It is only one person in the guild that I really don't have respect for. And it was lost that night when she PM'd me.

So yeah. Whatever. I did say things that I shouldn't have said. But she also gave me reason to retaliate. She did not let me explain myself. She did not go over my posts to proofread them and get a good idea of what I could have meant. She assumed. a**/U/ME'D. And already made her mind up before she had PM'd me.

Therefore, I will not take back anything I said (AKA apologize) until she admits to this and apologizes herself.

Thanks.