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In addition to the whole "trippin out" situation, i have a real good ideas for drawing, but can no longer draw for an unknown reason. i want to try using a computer to draw
(im using GIMP 2.0) and no matter how hard i try to do the sketch, it will never go as i planned. i don't know what to do and right now i'm fixing to throw the ******** laptop against the wall!!! i'm freaking out and trying to get a grip. But then another problem arrives!! I CAN'T DRAW EVEN ON ********' PAPER!!! What the hell happened to me?? could I have lost my art skills completely for good?? I'm at home, the one place where ideas are never written or drawn. i can never draw at home and i don't go to school until monday and even i have not drawn a single damn picture.
I want to get out of this whole messy situation by at least getting some sleep but i'm ******** restless. i took some sleeping pills (i only take 2 which usually knocks me out in around 5 min. or so.) and they don't work no more. I don't want to take anymore than what i'm supposed to. So as of now, I'm stuck in my own mind.
Man this sucks a**. i have no idea what to do and no one to to talk to (except my brothers and they are a pain in the a** to talk to) and im bored as hell.