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WORTHLESS How does it feel when you're all alone and all torn up like you're useless, how does it feel when your friends turn against you and at the end you're clueless? How does it feel when you have no one to hear you and no one to help you make it through the day, how does it feel when you're taken as a game that the people you most love want to play? How does it feel when you've got nothing to do and you feel you're not worth anything, how does it feel when you see the cards you give to your friends, torn and thrown in the bin? How does it feel when people make fun of you and your freaking feelings, how does it feel when your most precious gifts are called worthless things? If you don't know how it feels to be treated this way, Then your one lucky person DARKNESS The darkness is indescribable. No definition is reliable. No one can put darkness into words. The very idea just sounds absurd. You can't put it in a container or box. It doesn't matter if it has lock. It will escape immediately. It will escape repeatedly. From it you can not run away For the darkness is here to stay. All you can do is wait and dream That some light will hear your scream. MISSING YOU If I could have one more chance to hold you in my arms, to hold your hand, kiss your lips and fall into your charm. Id cherish every moment as if it were my last, I don’t think you truly know how much I miss our past. But I had to move away and had to say goodbye no matter how much it hurt you or how much it made me cry. Yet my love still remains locked inside your heart even when im missing you and I start to fall apart. MISSING YOU FIGHT Large amounts of pain within my life, filled with stress, turmoil, and strife Yet I come out with a smile on my face, walking the tight rope at a steady pace. Push me harder you wont see me cry, ask me a question the truth I cant deny, clip my wings I proceed to fly, tell me I cant but I still try, when death creeps upon me I ask not why, for the fighter in me will never die ENJOYMENT OR TORMENT Trying to be positive, trying to deal with the pain of living with emotions on my sleeve. The bandit of shame now gets banished to the flames. I own my reactions if not my destiny. My enjoyment or my torment: it's really up to me even when the hands of fate bruise my flesh with cruelty. Whatever my past I'll move to the future with pride with my head held high, hoping soon to be walking under a less cloudy sky. DON’T PITY ME To Whom It May Concern, to all of whom may know me, Do not be let down thinking I will fail you in failing to see. I am going through a lot right now, mostly everything is on my shoulders. So please do not be mad that, if at the holidays, I cant bear any more boulders. I will be a blossoming Lotus again, Do Not Pity Me At All, My Friend. To Whom It May Concern, To All of Whom really care, I assure your precious souls , I will repair. This is now, however, a hard time , so please don’t shed a tear, Once I am free of my chains, there is nothing I will fear. I will be everything my friends need again, So please, do not pity me at all, my Friend. Thank you for your concern, Just wait for me and then you will know the real me, not a glimpse of the fake me ***God Bless Everyone Throughout The New Year And Lucky Wishes For New Beginnings*** SAVE ME I'm here. I can't do this on my own. Save me. Can't you see? I'm hurting. Always bruised. No one seeing. I need you To help me Escape from here. Cant you hear my plea Save me From this pain This destiny This life. I'm here Can't you see? I need you to Save me. ANOTHER LIE ANOTHER TEAR Another lie, another tear. You have once again hurt me, and you don't even care. You say you love me, you say that I am the most important thing to you, but what does that mean? Am I important when you blow off our plans to go hang out with someone who is trying to tear us apart? Am I important when nothing I say matters? When all you do is yell at me about everything? I wish you would wake up and see what you have done to me. I love you. I take care of you when you're sick - no questions asked. I do my best to give you what you want, and still you talk to me as if I am nothing. I'm supposed to hold a special place in your heart, and yet I feel like you look at me, but don't even see me. You don't see the pain, you don't see the struggles when you look into my eyes. Do you see the hurt I feel? No!!! You don't see anything, because in your opinion, there's nothing to see. Another lie, another tear. But what does it mean to you? Absolutely nothing. FRIENDSHIP Friends are people who stick by you through thick and thin. Some will be with you until the very end. They are there for you when you're happy and when you're sad, and through good times and bad. They give you advice or their opinions when you want, but they are always there for you when you get yourself in a rut. Sometimes I think friends are like Guardian Angels sent from above to help us throughout our lives when we feel we’ve had enough. They help direct us, and help us feel good about ourselves, and they let us know we can make it when we feel ourselves in doubt. So, we should always cherish the friendships we have and know we're together in this world through good times and bad. STAR Twinkle, twinkle little star With your speed, faster than a racing car Let my friends know who you are For you lead the way to all Heavens near and far. You shine every night in the sky Letting the world know there is no hurry to say goodbye Because as long as you are up so high They know their hopes and dreams can fly. BAD FRIEND No one knows how bad it is, to have a friend who doesn't care, when you need your friend in bad times, and that friend is never there. Why does this word exist? which we call betrayal, the kind of friends that deceive us, shouldn't be called friends but players. and when their times come, they ask for help from you, punch their faces damn hard, that's what you should do. but you don't cuz of your forgiving nature, you go and help them out, but kiddo they'll betray you again, just don't have any sort of doubt. these kind of people should be hanged, hanged from the roof top or the ceiling, cuz man these friends are heartless, they don’t have feelings. then depression will follow your path, no matter where you go, you'll cut and bleed and harm yourself, but a smile you'll always show. hats off to a friend like you, why don't they be like you? when will they learn to be good? and when will good they do? I know it's hard to forgive these friends, not even God will forgive, so don't you feel bad or guilty, and a happy life you'll live. BECAUSE OF YOU Even if the sun refuses to shine stars lost its glitters, sky gathers dark clouds I am with you 'til the end. Even if our world passes away Time stops to move, ocean changes its course I will always love you. Because of you I have the reasons to smile My heart continues to beat, I have the strength to live on My soul delights in love. Because of you My life is filled with light Tears take no place at all, My days are prolonged Death is not a sting anymore. BETTER TOMORROW We stood side by side, always ready. The rain soaked through our heavy jackets. We were cold, chilled to the bone but not from the rain. The chill was the chill of fear. No one dared to speak for fear of breaking the silence around us. We stared into the darkness before us. there was a sudden 'crack' of a gunshot. At that moment our bodies became stiff and the sharp pain of cold dread sliced through our spines like frozen lightning. My heart felt as if it had stopped. out of the corner of my eye I saw the bullet, as black as death in the darkness. I looked to my left as if it were instinct, I had to make shure he wasn't hit. I looked into my brothers eyes and saw no fear as he whispered something under his breath..."We do not fight for our country or our flag, We fight for what they represent.......A better tomorrow." Imagine Imagine a world where you can’t imagine, Just picture it in your mind Now think of what you just did And think if you didn’t have this delight If you could not imagine Didn’t have personal thoughts, or couldn’t describe If you could only think of what you were expected to If black and white was a part of life Life would be bland and dull, Tiring and meaningless We would be like robots, Without a will to live for, we would Probably just die A smile would be unheard of, Happiness and Love would be non-existent, and we’d Never know the words strange, different or victorious So be glad that you can decide, can have your voice heard Can express your self, and can have an imagination And take advantage of this privilege You can begin today Imagine, think, feel, love and live If you don’t know where to start, I’ll tell you when you did: Just as soon as you read the first line of this poem. A REAL FRIEND Sometimes we are Blessed with a REAL friend in a lifetime, True, Honest ones are hard to come by that you can say This Friend is mine; Be proud if you are THE one whom has such a friend, because this friend you can count on to always stick with you through thick and thin; This Real friend will let you know if they think you've done wrong, but when they do wrong they too will let you know as long; as they know that you are a true and honest friend, and know that you will be understanding as they've been; Real friends are a rare people indeed, If you have the chance to find one, we need more, please plant the seed. we Don't need more of the kind that says we're friends, to tell us what we want to hear, I know too many of those do you want the addresses? I’ve got them right here. But I've learned that if you want a Real friend you have to be one, don't be like me, to learn the hard way and be dumb; Be true, Honest ,understanding with a lot of love, you'd be surprised to see what Real friends you'd become.