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I've been contemplating existance and just why the hell I am here on this lump of rock we call earth. Is there a grande design or do we play out our lives be a roll of the metaphorical dice we all keep buried in the back of our heads? And why, oh why am I here? In this town, with this boy? Is it to keep him, head above water, or to teach me somthing? Will he be a lesson on what not to let future childeren see and become, or is he as I hope, the one I will stay with and be forever happy?
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If this is all what is supposed to be happing, then why through in the raging mountains of jelousey!? And the supposed to be funny, hurt full comments.... It squeezes me every time an old flame is brought up, all in good contest it seems, while I only spite the basturd I've left dead and buried. What am I doing wrong? I though I was being a good b***h for him, buying him what he needed when ever. Walking my a** home in whatever weather, just so I can see him sleep as I back toward the door. I feel like s**t when I come home, because I'm not allowed to stay there , because " it looks bad". What the hell do I care what other people think it looks like! They know I'm just there to sleep so why care about my image? It makes them look bad thats why.
I feel like giving up when ever I sit to home and end up thinking about it. But when I'm with him I dont give a s**t. I love him so much , despite all the retarded things said and done. But how much can i take, before I break? This love I have has stuck fast and strangles me ever second of it. And I love ever minute of it while I'm held by you. heart


I'm so EMO emo

I'm BORED cheese_whine cheese_whine cheese_whine

Muahahahahaha! I havent been on in ages so i thought i'd drop a line _____________________......there a line ^w^ dramallama

xd So excited! whee this i an idea of what y hair will look like cool yup 3nodding and i have a tinkerbell dress exclaim I'll pot pics of it soon 4laugh PROM=MAY 13TH eek

Ice cold and thick
the words your saying
meek,
they make me sick.
Like you can fix your wrongs
By sarahnade of stolen songs.
I live my life without you
and I stand by what I choose.
Go away, turn back
Your not wanted here, and really
Never were a choice.
You've been replaced by something greater
Ten fold better than you.
You've covered me in Ice again
but this time I wont lose,
You've filled my soul with hate.
Lost as I was, I fed off of you
Thinking I had someone special
Someone true.

Now I have what I wanted all along
No longer will I feed off of your song.
I fallow a different beat, closer and much more deep,
Like the song of my life that once was.

Beat it, Give up
You suck.

LAlaLAla LAAAA!!!!!! Im bored!! god damn it! MARRRR scream yes I screamed "marrrr" whee I'm really tired of working in the icecream parlor at work, I mean its not that its bad, its the being alone ALL the time I hate. I wouldnt mind doing turn downs with Hollie if I could keep my hours, cause the pay is better.....*sigh* I hate just being alone all by meself. ........<------(thought) I'm mentally tired. rolleyes I want to go do something new, and I really want to get PAID today....that would be nice......god, SLACKERS. evil

I believe I will start a collective gathering of gaians with a nurse theme thinger!!! hehehehe.........It will probably be just a banner though, because I cant figure out too much more >_>