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The emptiness
The hollow sound of an ancient tune
It flees again in fear
The horrible metallic scraping sound inside my head
Ever persists

The demons whisper in my ear on every heartbeat
They know no mercy
They push the blades deeper into my skin
Perverse, this is my emotional masturbation
They urge me to sin, I slowly fall away
Will you save me?

I need someone to help me
I cannot possibly do this by myself
Would you spare some of your innocence?
Be more than my friend?
This goes beyond the known feelings
Can't we bend the boundaries of reality?

I'm falling into disrepair and slowly suffocating my blessings
I can't feel my mind
I try to achieve as much as I can
I can never be what you want
The ringing in my ears will never stop
I will jump to my death

Sometimes I hear angels singing me a lullaby
These are only the demons again
Trying to lull me into a death
Perhaps I should surrender

I sin my way out of any significant existence
I keep it all locked inside
You hold this dusty key
Please unlock me
I won't be beautiful
I will just be, that is the only thing I want

The image of that dusty light bulb still fills my mind
The gentle swinging of the cord
The sound of the squeaking mattress made me sick
I want to close my eyes
I cannot sleep knowing what I've done
I have destroyed my life

I need to find a way, a way out of all of this
I need to find myself
I need to find anything but myself
All I find is disappointment in what I really am
Or is that really me?

The devil ******** with my mind and makes me deranged
He gently hands me rose colored glasses
Hiding this abomination of my life
I want you to take me until I'm raw inside
I want you to have your ecstasy
After all, I am just a toy

Take me from the pain, be my savior
Be my end
Take my hand and lead me to freedom
I need an escape
I'm drowning in my own personal hell
And it's nobody's fault but mine

I'll dig myself a bed six feet deep
I will sleep tonight
Rip me to shreds and I'll bleed my soul out
For you, just for you
This is what I want
Show me a way to smile every day
Even if I have to pretend

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