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hav u ever felt hurt so much that it feels as if i cant go away no matter wat u do....well i hav that feeling now. and i need to vent so im writing a journal about it. if ur one of my friends u might kno who im talking about...i hav been going out with this sweet caring guy.he hurt me once by lieing to me.he promised me that we would go out in highskool and that he would never hurt me again. that was also a lie....we got into this big arguement and i didnt want to talk to him...a few hours later i hear that he has a new girlfriend! i talked to one of my friends on the phone...she told me and i just started crying none stop. i couldnt belive it....then i talked to him he said he wus so srry and i asked him y.he said that i broke up with him and she wuz there to pick up the pieces of his broken heart...i didnt break up with him i just didnt want to talk to him...but he took it the wrong way. all that time i was talking to him a was crying my eyes out. i couldnt stop..my tears were like a waterfall. that night i cryed myself to sleep....all i had on my mind was him..all the memories we had togther....the day i met him...the time we spent together and the end of the year dance....i layed there just crying i still luved him but i wasnt gonna go back to him ever cuz i didnt want to feel horrible once again. i look at the pics of us and of him and all the poems he wrote for me and just cry. why did he hav to do that to me...i feel so horrible i never knew a person could feel this bad...i just want to cry all day and night until i couldnt anymore. i cant watch a sad movie without balling my eyes out. i cant listen to a love song without crying.on tv when i see a couple i hav to change the channel cuz it brings bac memories.....it feels like a part of me is gone...my heart feels as if it was trammpled by a million horses...i dont kno when i will b able to get over him...he wuz my first luv and i dont think i will ever completly forget about him...and it gonna take me a long time to get over him....feeling like that dont just go away over night...... crying
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