Well last night was not a whole lot of fun. I had to go to the Hospital. I have a bad habbit of bittingmy inner lip and cheek. Well last night I bit it to deeply. It was bleeding quite badly. The staff at Mainestay sent me to the ER. I ended up with 5 stiches in my mouth. They have already started to come out. I don't know if that's a good thing or not. Maybe it is. Maybe it means that my mouth is healing. Granted I learned a lesson last night. I'm not going to do that again.
Work was dead today. I ended up getting pissed off at one of my co-workers. She was telling me what to do. She's not even a shift leader. She thinks she is, but she's not. It really annoyed me. I did what she wanted any way. I mean the stuff had to get done. She could have asked me nicer though.
I finally have every thing in at Avesta. I should know soon when I'll have an apartment. If it's more then 1.5 months, I'm moving back in with my parents. I really can't stand staying at MaineStay to much longer. The stress there makes me want to hurt myself and or others there. It's actually one of the reasons why I started to "chew" and bite my cheek and lip.
I'm going to a spagetii supper tonight. It's being put on by the Jukado competition team. My mom is going to be going as well. I'm just happy it's getting me out of Mainestay for a while. I really hate being there. I mean I am hardley ever home. I'm really only there to sleep. It's sad when you don't care any more. I mean I feel at time like I'd rather be living in the shelter. I wont leave till I have another place to stay, but that's how I feel.
I'm looking forward to next week. I'll be back in school. I mean there have been times that I haven't wanted to go to class, and I'd be lieing if I said that I never skipped class. I'm still going though. I'm going to pass both classes this semester. It's a good thing for me to.
While I have been doing reserch for my english paper, I have been doing some serious thinking regarding my religious preferances and spirituallity. It's time that I got some "traditional" Wiccan training. I'm going to need to get mylicence first, but I've already started to look at Covens and groups out of State. Some of them have replied to my inquiries already. This is a good sign. Of course I'll meet them in person before I do anything with them, but at least I have started right?
Well, that about somes it up.
~Devi~
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