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The nine of swords card suggests that i should try to contain my emotions until I have everything in order. Then later i can retreat into my own comfort zone and let it all out--The regret or guilt i have been feeling sticks like a thorn and keeps me from confronting shattered romantic illusions. i should be aware that the fear or sorrow hanging over my head could be taking its toll on my love life and my relationships. If this torment is recurring, I need to realize that it isn't about what I have done to deserve this, but more the about the natural consequences of something i have been unable to see clearly until now. This is about that moment of painful yet necessary realization. I know I can't go on like this anymore-- there is no going Back. Inevitable change must Come.

The & of swords card represents that power lies in scruples(An uneasy feeling arising from conscience or principle that tends to hinder action). I will not cheat myself, look the other day, sneak or be distracted by superficial perceptions disguised as appeal, entitlement, rescue, comfort or security. In this stage I am not a victim and therefore, any advantage, temptation, or betrayal would be an inside job or come from a moment of opportunity in choosing to leave myself unprotected or exposed. I am empowered by expectation and opportunity and my virtue is forewarning and accountability.