~"If Humans feed on the flesh of birds and cows"~
~"and Vampires live on the blood of Humans"~
~"and Vampires live on the blood of Humans"~
....well this will probably the first time I ever started a journal that is sad...
Well today me and my gf have gotten into it....
I feel really bad.....
The only thing I want to do is tell her I love her.....
but my anger is keeping me from it....
I don't want to say anything stupid, especially with how mad I am, at myself, right now....
I just want her to know that I am sorry...
I hope she forgives me.....
I just feel very selfish and immature....
but at the same time I feel betrayed.....sorta...
I just idk what to do right.....now....
Just please forgive me......
I don't want to do something stupid.....
I want to be with her...but I don't feel she feels the same, as of this moment....
I know she wants to spend time with her best friend and all...and I know she is going through alot.....but I am just being selfish.....
I just need to go f***k my emotions and get over it.....
I do trust her and all....I just I feel like I am breaking down...emotionally...I am very happy....but most of the happiness comes from being with her...and now I am mad...so right now that happiness has turned into anger towards myself.....and I am taking it out on her...
I just wanted to let you know... I am sorry Melissa....and I love you Melissa......
You are still my little vampire.
~"Then does it not follow that something must live on your blood."~
~"Crusinks, Vampires, live on other Vampires blood."~
~"Crusinks, Vampires, live on other Vampires blood."~
