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i open my eyes to their state of sleep
my blood now running cold
like a frozen river
i pull my frail body into the chair
with disapointing disapointment
this might be the last time
i feel its good enough
to be just out of reach
just out of reach!
when i break you will be the first to go
i am discontent
i am ******** with this
no reasons why
no need for reasons why
in a beautiful scenery
i am but a stick figure
standing their alone
i pull my frail body into the chair
with disapointing disapointment
nothing is right everything is wrong
you said dipping my heart in happiness wouldnt last
i said you were wrong but you were right
the happiness dripped off
all thats left is whats already shattered

my heart bleeds red now
im dying the further this thing goes
why cant we go back to the way things were before
i thought i could get over this and everything would turn out fine
do i have to say goodbye to you?
do i have to say goodbye to long nights on the phone?
those were the nights i charished the most
but their slipping away
so devine why is this happening?
i miss those akward thoughts
akward smiles
i left your room for the last time
i cant see the friend i knew so long ago
you use to make the light shine
but my sun has left the sky to busy to show
dont say you miss me cuz you havent noticed i left
theres something i must confess
its not easy letting this go
waiting here alone wishing you would call
while im Writing all my thoughts
You gave it all up, you threw it all away.
There's nothing I can do.
What do I think you've done?
You know it's even worse than what's in my head.
You don't believe me when I tell you:
I'll always be here for you
theres no point in calling you
it will become one sided
so maybe one day
i wont evan care
but for now i think ive lost
maybe when you find out that im gone
you'll relize you ditched me

i cant stay mad forever...but it still hurts