Wow, been a while since i wrote anything here.
Lets see. Done college, working for Whistler bike park and making some pretty good coin. I have loved and lost several times and still making some of the same mistakes i have been making for a long time now, but i have found new ones as well. Oh how fun i can be when i tank a relationship in one night. But none the less i am much more happy now. I admit i have my moments of sadness or wishing things were different, but not the way i use to. Before i wished i was dead. Now i just wish i could live in my happy place year round. Ahh, whistler where all my fun and some trouble lies. First year there i learned that partying has it's price. second year i learned not doing stuff like you know you should, has a price. Third year seemed it was gonna finally be a year to remember and it was. Met an awesome girl(maybe a little too awesome) had a spectacular year in the park. Like progressed alot. Actually had a solid crew of colleges i was proud to work with and socialize with. But some things never change and i let booze ******** some s**t up with the girl, wrecked a phone or two and said some really stupid s**t to someone i cared about. I also made an a** of myself in front of a good friend and colleague. Oh well i think i smoothed that one over before i left. Tho when i think back on the year, i still smile. My racing this season was substandard, i was soo disappointed with myself ans results, but i know i can do better and i know what i did wrong, so yet again i look back with a positive attitude on it all. Especially since i should have probably broke my neck when i crashed in my one race, damn that rung my bell. Lets see...what else. I have learned i should listen to the voice in my head thats says "no, thats a bad idea" but i have not actually started listening to it yet. But still, i am not sad or depressed. I find myself wondering where my path will lead now, i also find myself excited for the coming season. looking forward to sushi with friends and riding with my fellow instructors and bosses. well i guess i have no insight for this one or any Revelations. Tho i do wonder about one persons motives right now. I feel there is something being with held from me and it bothers me. But i might have just fixed that with out knowing it. It is funny the power one word carries, especially when it has many meanings yet soo hard to know what meaning is ment. I guess you look at the context. When mentioned in the slip of the tounge, is that the word at it's true meaning or a clumsy use? what if it is used, but only after the use of other words to confuse and deflect? does it carry the same weight or does the unknown use you have given it, give it more power? oooo look i found an insight or revelation. damn little ******** just appeared. guess i still have a bit of wisdom left, or is it deep thoguhts. I guess you the reader shall be the judge. as for me, i go back to counting the days till i return to my life once again.
Lets see. Done college, working for Whistler bike park and making some pretty good coin. I have loved and lost several times and still making some of the same mistakes i have been making for a long time now, but i have found new ones as well. Oh how fun i can be when i tank a relationship in one night. But none the less i am much more happy now. I admit i have my moments of sadness or wishing things were different, but not the way i use to. Before i wished i was dead. Now i just wish i could live in my happy place year round. Ahh, whistler where all my fun and some trouble lies. First year there i learned that partying has it's price. second year i learned not doing stuff like you know you should, has a price. Third year seemed it was gonna finally be a year to remember and it was. Met an awesome girl(maybe a little too awesome) had a spectacular year in the park. Like progressed alot. Actually had a solid crew of colleges i was proud to work with and socialize with. But some things never change and i let booze ******** some s**t up with the girl, wrecked a phone or two and said some really stupid s**t to someone i cared about. I also made an a** of myself in front of a good friend and colleague. Oh well i think i smoothed that one over before i left. Tho when i think back on the year, i still smile. My racing this season was substandard, i was soo disappointed with myself ans results, but i know i can do better and i know what i did wrong, so yet again i look back with a positive attitude on it all. Especially since i should have probably broke my neck when i crashed in my one race, damn that rung my bell. Lets see...what else. I have learned i should listen to the voice in my head thats says "no, thats a bad idea" but i have not actually started listening to it yet. But still, i am not sad or depressed. I find myself wondering where my path will lead now, i also find myself excited for the coming season. looking forward to sushi with friends and riding with my fellow instructors and bosses. well i guess i have no insight for this one or any Revelations. Tho i do wonder about one persons motives right now. I feel there is something being with held from me and it bothers me. But i might have just fixed that with out knowing it. It is funny the power one word carries, especially when it has many meanings yet soo hard to know what meaning is ment. I guess you look at the context. When mentioned in the slip of the tounge, is that the word at it's true meaning or a clumsy use? what if it is used, but only after the use of other words to confuse and deflect? does it carry the same weight or does the unknown use you have given it, give it more power? oooo look i found an insight or revelation. damn little ******** just appeared. guess i still have a bit of wisdom left, or is it deep thoguhts. I guess you the reader shall be the judge. as for me, i go back to counting the days till i return to my life once again.
