Listening to: Vanilla Twilight
Watching: You read
Eating: my saliva
Drinking: my saliva
Turn on your computer and log into your account if you haven't opened your account in a while now.
Open up a pop up window and meet new friends..
Have you ever met a person online whose heart is as Softer as a pillow?
I opened my gaming account where you dress up your character and edit profiles ; that let's you meet new friends around the world.
While I was browsing , I opened this Pop up called RALLY and CLICKED jump going into some random server and I noticed an boy avi dressed by girl clothes.
In the game people should be using avatars to communicate with other people; I asked this particular guy if he was GAY , and LOL he answered, No. then he left the server.
Damn I was scared ! I thought he hated me for asking that... And next thing I know he came back and changed his clothes to guy clothing. For a second there I thought he was some character from Final Fantasy 8 => Squall Leonheart <= ;
He approached me and told me do you believe me now xD and so I answered yes
I asked him why'd he wear such thing x__x and LOL he told me he was celebrating Chinese New Year wtf?...
That was the day we met and started off as friends...
Did you know that I liked him? His attitude , his politeness, I mean you can't find them very often can't you :3 ? And his Dialogue saying : A person like you being dumped will be very unlucky for the guy and so on and so fourth.
I don't know but I liked him Easily...
AND, because I am a girl, I can't actually ask him to go out with me and that would be sicken wrong! O__O ...
AND SO, I made excuses like :
1. do you have a gf?
2. do you plan on finding one?
3. Sending him a message saying I like him
Heck the next day - 1 am in the morning - he just asked me to go out with him
OF COURSE I was happy he asked me, Because of that, with no Hesitations I answered him :3!~
We became love birds for the 1 whole week ...
Probably you're wondering why 1 week well this is what happened...
It's because some heck of times our Relationship went On and Off On and Off ,
his love for me was true, he gave me his TRUE TRUE TRUST but I... did gave him my Love but...
Somewhat I felt the need of a touch... He is from some other country and we were too far apart -_-
I can't feel the love, like the effect of the 'instant love'-- went off
unlike last time...
Usually I'm the one being dumped but now I dumped a guy that actually loves me for who I am and what I am...
There was this promise...
" We will meet each other when the day comes "
Well... the relationship was off and he asked me if I'd still keep the promise but I thought different directions and I can't decide , I was confused so for short I answered No.
I know that I really broke his heart when I said that, Infact I still remember he said
"You are the first and the last one that I'll love and no matter how much you hurt me your still the one for me"
Well heh, I believe him... I understand what he said but I told him to find another but he resists to find one... well after the day we broke up , we managed to go on separate ways and deleted each other via friendslist gaiaonline...
Time passed and I still check his profile very often ...
Looked at it and saw that he had found the one he was looking for.
Of course I was hurt, but not that much because I was happy for him, he found someone who wouldn't hurt him anymore.
the thing is I broke his promise in meeting each other someday, I hurt him.
But he kept his promise by looking for someone else to love him truly
and Im very much happy for him :'> ...
Last message for him is, always be happy and I'm sorry for all the trouble I've cost you.
· Wed Apr 21, 2010 @ 06:31pm · 0 Comments