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To my first love, to the one who saved me, to the man I wished to be with..
I do not intend for you to read this letter, but if you have I know you won't ever forgive me for what I have done. I hope at least you can accept my gratitude. I wouldn't be the person I am today without you.
A year ago, I made you shed tears for me. I know how you felt after I painfully shoved you away and telling I wasn't happy anymore. My heart was torn a million pieces after that day, but I knew it didn't compare to how you felt.
I was selfish, I was thinking about myself, about my family, about everyone's opinion. I let them run my own life...and felt I never really had a choice.
From where I am, it is not easy to thrive and live. I didn't had that capacity to ever think that it could work, I didn't want you to suffer because we are in different situations, you are practically living in heaven, and I on earth...
But..that is not an excuse, I admit I was wrong, you never did anything except shower me with unconditional love regardless that we were ocean's apart. I made a choice. But I did not regret it..
December 26, how happy was I to see you finally have what you wanted, someone who can openly show you their love and affection, I actually shed tears for a while knowing that you are no longer mine..
I was at a gamble, never thought it could work out but God was too good to me that he actually granted me the same happiness I wished upon you...
I just want to say thank you. For saving me, for making me feel important, loved and respected. I'll always remember the songs you written for me, countless poems and laughter every night before I sleep. The times whe I felt so down and you would alwaya manage to make me smile, I knew I was the luckies girl in the world..You are indeed an angel in disguise, if it weren't for you I would be lost..
I'll be praying for you. I pray that you may be blessed with a beautiful family, I'll talk to Mr Moon every night to keep you safe.
Till then my love, maybe in the next lifetime you and I will both not struggle, we'd be in a perfect world, where you and I belong in to each others embrace.
Thank you, I love you, and goodbye.
 Valiant Gunner · Sat Oct 28, 2017 @ 05:13pm · 0 Comments |
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