How am i today? Well im feeling sick inside. Sick of all the s**t in my life. Sick of feeling sick, and dealing with death. I want it all to stop. So i can get on with my life. I want to be able to put my razor away with no new scars, no bleeding, no pain and suffering. I want for my life to be happy, and i want a love, but the love i want hates me. What can i do? I can sit and wait, in my dark room everynight crying into my pillow, wishing i could hold him tight and cuddle. But no. He wont come, I wont ever get to hug him. You know why? because he's probably dead. Do you care? Mostlikely not, because you dont know me. You think im a dumbass and I dont matter. But you matter to me. Yes i know, i dont know you but i do care. I do miss you Nicky, even though i turned you down, i love you man n i miss you. Gareth, im glad im your best friend, and that u love me too. And im glad i stopped you from killing ur self because ur such a good friend to me i dont ever want to loose you. Bartlet, im glad i stopped you too. And Jeff....my love...who wont talk to me...if by chance you have Gaia...plz...talk to me...Jeff Payne...i love you so much n i miss u...
Why am i runnning my mouth like this?? Because im ******** bored and want to go home and sleep, yes sleep for as long as i effing can!....and i needed to get most of it out...n i did...finally...
Sarah(s'cuse me for all this i just needed to type it all out to get it off my chest)
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