Well basicly, I am gunna chuck on daily updates in my journal of whats goin on/ did go on that day. So y'all can get an indepth look at Arky's life. Have fun. If you wish to comment on a specific day just quote it in your comment so things are easier to understand.
Sunday, August 12, 2007:
Well currently, it is 6:30 am so I havn't done much today, already my mom's on my a**, nothing new. Just chillen on gaia made my new orenge/black avi 8D and well, planning to climb stuff today maybe. Or just hangout not sure yet... I kinda am bored, I wish she didn't leave to edmonton for 2 weeks, heh we only started hanging out again recently but jease I'm bored. Gosh, I feel like a creeper o.o
Monday, August 13, 2007:
I just got home from spending the enight at big josh's and climbing stuff all night. It went alright the climbing was a flop tho, so we went back to his place and watched a bunch of movies on youtube. It was fun but I am glad to be back home with my computer *hugs moniter* My mom was pretty angry that I didn't tell her I wasn't coming home last night, but whatever not my problem. She's just a bish...
Tuesday, August 14, 2007:
Well, I slept all day today pretty much lol, I finally was uo for more than an hour at about 9pm. I am almost officially a vampire now =p. Well I am just eating and such really boring day, doing work on my gaia guild and am prolly gunna play maplestory or gunz now. *sigh* Lame really... and my gramps gave me a crappy controller to replace his cordless he lent me, it dosn't even work!! Grr x.x
Friday, August 17, 2007: I am bored, about 12pm and I am just chillen on the comp like usual, not much to put right now, and the days I didn't write anything in I didn't do much either. Hungout with josh and chris, and thats about it. Although something interesting has arisen but I am not sure of the result. So not worth talkin about yet, anyway that's all for now.
Saturday, August 25, 2007: Well I havn't added anything because ive been busy lately... although not really sure doing what, just hanging out and gaming. Although I am expecting a lot less net time.. I.E. me not coming on as much anymore and instead hanging out and running around doing stuff =p, being online is depressing sometimes. Anyway thats all for now ^^
Sunday, September 09, 2007: Mildly pissed. Feeling like crap, nothing new. I seem to always make these plees to people. I feel so bad, I rant to everyone and I don't want to I feel like I am so self centered. Then I just turn around and insult everyone behind there back. I hate 90% of the people I know. The rest don't even take the time to be around me. I don't know what to do, maybe it's me maybe i'm just to picky, maybe I am a jerk.. jease I keep getting into situations like this so often and each time it gets worse and worse cause the more I do it I just feel like an idiot who gets upset over nothing. But I just feel like I have nothing.. my family .. I don't have any of that. Maybe my dad and grandparents I see every now and than and I certainly don't have the option of hanging out with good freinds. Or maybe I'm just the bad freind.. maybe I'm just the bad family. I just don't know, I feel liek that typical emo kid, ugly looking, over reactant personality. Whats good about me? Nothing, I always wind up so down and I can't seem to pick myself up, I let the way I act be almost entirely be comprised of who I am talking to at the time, I'm not me I'm never me, I don't even know if I exsist. If you know me in r/l and think im some kind of loser, or are offended.. just go away, you and all the others can just go away. I just seem to keep declining and the more I do, the more often and more worse it becomes... well I have been happy for like a week. Isn't that a record! Jease... sometimes I just want to be left alone.. but yet not. I just want people who I don't have to hate, who don't give me the reason to just accept me, the people who do I don't feel like I belong with. I just don't understand, why isn't there anyone there for me, anyone I can be happy with. There has to be someone I can feel confortable with... right?... a*****e says I don't care enough. You can never take anything seriously, you can never care the minute you place hope, the minute you put yourslef out there. It all falls apart, you look like a fool, and i'm sick of feeling like a fool, walk in happy and glad, leave a failure and horribley sad.
Thursday, September 13, 2007: Well, I'm doing alright, yesterday went bad at frist but turned out well, today was alright for lunch, got in touch with freinds I havn't seen over the summer (Mike, Josh and Melissa) Heh havn't hungout with them in a while. Since I hangout with the Mikes Magic shop crew now. Maybe I should hang around them more often, it was hilarious ^^ so as for today, I can't complain :3. Drama sucked. Everyone was like all having fun making sock puppets and im kinda like er... whatever. Trying to work on mine, people were hording the glue guns, so I just kinda sat pretending I had a purpose, someone said that I looked all emo like and I'm like errgh... I suppose, and then laughed it off, I felt excluded. So I just sat in a corner and sketched. the sketch turned out well! My freinds were kinda wondering what I was doing alone. They came over and were like you gotta work on your puppet and im like meh, I can't. Then I just continued. The sketch is going well though and I wound up finishing my puppet becuse mat did the glueing for me while I was like in my hidey drawing hole. As for now, chatting to nikky, thats about it. Tis going well ^^.. hopefully better some day. But for now, i'm good.
Thursday, September 27th: heart
Saturday, September 29th: Hah just got up, doing good so far, Ive been feeling better since the earlier entries of this month. =] So yeah all has been evened out lately. Which is good ^^
