Okaaay so this is the first time for me using me journal.
but i have to get these thoughts out.
i dont really care if anyone reads it or not.
Anyhow. What I want to talk about is a sterotypical teeange girl thing that i would normally not talk about but... yea. my boyfriend.
G-d that seems so teeny-bopper-ish. like "OMG bf 4 lyfe!"
but no
i love him.
how do i know?
well
for one thing, i am not an extreamly religious person, but when i do pray, it's usually for my mom, brother, or extended family.
But i find myself praying for him.
and once, we kissed, and the words"i love you" just spilled out of my mouth... i hardly noticed i said them before he said the same back to me.
i know
i sound sickeningly sweet, right?
here's the thing
we've been going out for a little over a month
that's about it.
and i've fallen hard and fast.
he says he has too
and i really do love him
but im wondering if its all going too fast.
he's the first guy ive ever wanted a serious relationship with
and the first one ive wanted to go "all the way" with
but... im only 16
do i really know anything at all?
i mean
i can imagine spending the rest of my life with him
i could never do that with anyone before.
and he's 17
and in a few months (july), he'll be 18.
it'll be legally weird
'cause i'd still be 17 for a year while he's 18...
... plus he'll be in collage while im still in high school
i dont know whats going to happen
and now i am done
the end
`Ducky Community Member 
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