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My name is Yoad (pronounced yo-add), I'm a 14 year old average teen. I was born in Israel and raised there untill i was 9 years old... I then moved with my family to Australia... for a better life basically... (this was planned during the war we had... Israel vs Lebanon). I wasn't like the other kids... I never got whatever i want whenever i wanted, money was always a problem... untill today. My parents aren't strict or anything... I just cooperate, i listen to them and all... I really like my parents, sometimes i even feel sorry for them and what'd happen if they weren't alive anymore. My life is pretty tough, though it can be smooth in some places. My parents smoke weed, they've been smoking it since i can remember. As a kid i remember my dad would cover up some door frames because he used to grow them in there, i was always aware of places where he grew his plants in. They smoke it everyday, but i then realized it wasn't always for them to smoke... sometimes but seriously rarely it would be for wealth... I've tried weed before, i smoked it more than once... but the first time, you know how people say you don't get high... i finally realised why i did get high the first time... because i inhaled the thc that was left over in my house in the air... or from inhaling what's coming out of my parent's mouth when i talk to them... My mother went to Israel to visit her mother, she had a heart attack but she's fine now... and she has to pay it off. My dad grows those plants for a lot of reasons. But i think you get the idea now, it's the money which is our problem at the moment... I go to camps in school, youth groups etc... Last year's camp is the camp i didn't go to... year 8 camp... i went to year 7 camp.. i went to 3 youth program camps... I don't miss out on everything, but mostly when i WANT to go to something or i want something... I don't get it... I was supposed to go to a $500 camp today... but i couldn't, why? because we can't afford it. My really really really good friend (best friend) Matan, has a single mum too... (my parents are divorced) The program gave him a huge discount... he paid $140 for the camp, and they got a month to pay it off... A pretty good deal if you ask me... And the camp is a 14 hour drive to Queensland... in Brisbane that is... a ******** beautiful place (in Australia) and i really didn't want to miss out on that camp... it's every year but the places change every year too... which is why im so down upon myself. My friend... Matan called me 6 hours after i woke up... which is about 3 hours through the drive, he told me my name was in the list, he asked me why i couldn't go to, it was very hard for me to tell him... i was also very angry to tell him i couldn't go because etc etc. I said i knew that my name would be in the list, i signed up for the forms and everything. But they wanted $400 from us at the least, my mum had a talk to them on the phone and everything they know she's single... too bad it was on the last moment. It was a night before the drive so they wanted to get as much $ from us which is why i couldn't go. It's why i appreciated everything... since i was a little kid, appreciating things was normal. I appreciated EVERYTHING, if i think about it because of my parent's financial status i started appreciating things since i didn't get anything. There's a group of people who play this game with me, it's called SOF2 mp, it's a gun game. And you know everyone got their luxuries; their gaming mouses their gaming headsets etc... well i was really into the headsets, there's this headset i really really like (Razor Megalodons) they're about $190 in the market, i got about $70 and i guess it was hard for my mum to add... I told my friend about it, he got it about 2 months after i told him about it. I was very upset, because it was even cheaper in boxing day and my mum didn't want to add any $. We don't own a house, we've been living in it for the past 5 and a half years in lease... not easy if you ask me, and also it's a really small house, it's a unit. I'm probably 1 out of all my friends to have a unit, they all own a house or at least live in one in lease which is like at least triple the size of mine... It's not like i'm jealous or anything but i just can't stand it to be honest. You know what it's like... i'm a Jew and you know... i'm still trying to figure out how all the Jews in my area are ******** rich but i'm small and short in money and wealth... Which is why i hate being teased and called a Jew... i'd hate to see a friend be called that... I learn in a public school... not a Jewish school, i'd die in a Jewish school. I get REALLY angry seeing someone being humiliated abused insulted etc... I ain't no weak stick, i'm pretty average i think. But yeah, people chucking coins in the school in my direction really pisses me off, looking at those coins thinking will that amount change my life, if i pick this up would it show that i appreciate it or would it show that i need it. Really you don't know what you have until you lose it, it's really like that. Sometimes i think i appreciate too much, people don't deserve appreciation. I'm not an attention seeker, i just want people to understand what i'm going through... it's why i'm a fighter. Thankyou for reading.
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