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Into the Shadows of a Darkened Mind Just making it day by day. Check it out if you care.


roses_made_of_ashes
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Complicated
Ok, Let's see.

Alot of people lately have wanted to know how I've been. I tell them I'm ok/fine, but deep down Im not.

Alot of things have been happening lately, quite fast actually. I don't want to go into details, so I'll speak in generalities. But, things leave me with a feeling of confusion and pain.

I don't know what's happening to me-I can feel myself getting more distant and pained everyday, and it just grows. I need someone here to help me through it, but the people that offer, I just push them away and don't want it from them. I think eventually if I continue, I'll have no one and part of me is ok with it.

I don't know how to express how I feel anymore, or what to feel. I think eventually I'll just push everything down to the point where I don't need emotions. If that ever happens, I think I'll be ok with it.

Right now Im at the point where I don't want anything to do with anyone, and I just want something to take my mind off the situations I'm in. I'm tired at getting close to people and getting hurt.

I don't know why I posted this, considering I don't want sympathy or pity. I guess its more of trying to make an attempt of describing how I feel so I know partially whats wrong with me.

But anywho...who cares, right?





 
 
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