To be honest, this is completely overdue. I haven't written here since starting this journal, and perhaps this will help me out more than I thought.
First off, I've completed a semester of school. I have three certificates so far, all of this is going towards my becoming an IT Technician for Computer Hardware and Software. It makes me proud that I'm actually getting something done with my life, instead of wasting away worthlessly. Maybe I'll be of some worth to a company someday. After all, computers will always eventually break down or get problems, and it's a job that cannot be moved somewhere else.
This summer has been somewhat nice, although the heat is something I'd rather do without. Unfortunately, though, it has felt like it has dragged along, as each day is basically the same thing over and over. The only break in the monotony was the nearly two weeks of hanging out with my good friends, one who I hadn't seen in years. I had seen the true nature of someone I considered a friend as well, as she ended up being nothing more than a self-righteous, selfish jerk. I actually had to resist the urge to call her a curse word. She knew how mentally unstable I was, and yet she purposely threw me into a depression twice during a group sleepover at my friend's house.
Recently, though, I've noticed that my depression has increased, and I've been closing off my heart more and more. I seem to be reverting to when I was completely alone before meeting my best friend. It's not something I want to do, especially since I have so many good friends who care for me now. But every day, I feel myself slipping more and more into the darkness.
-sigh- Quite a rant.
 Forsaken Scholar · Fri Jul 08, 2011 @ 12:31am · 0 Comments |
