I wish you could see what you've done to yourself.
I could never imagine what could happen to the sweet girl I met nearly three years ago. What happened to you? What happened to the girl that said that weed wouldn't be in her life anymore? I wish you weren't so blind as to how you've changed so much; what it has done to you. I've changed so much, to see you happy and benefit our relationship. Can't you see what you've done? I can't see myself trusting you anymore. You've lied to me so many times that I can't understand what's truth and lies. Everyone else doesn't seem to care, they haven't seen what drugs have done to you. I hate to see you this way. I hate not being able to talk to you because I want to see you change your ways and break bad habits. But it just isn't getting to you. I sit here, waiting for you to tell me things will change. That you won't smoke anymore. It's discouraging. Everything isn't the same without you there for me to talk to. You've brought me so much comfort when I needed it. But I figured this was for your own good. I want you to see how your life would be if weed wasn't there, ******** everything up that could be good for you. My thirteen-year-old brother was just suspended for a week, and might be for the rest of the year because he had brought pot into school. he smoked pot for the memory of a trouble kid in high-school he barely knew. He ******** up the rest of his life for someone who made a shitty difference in his life. I don't want the person I love seeing the rest of her life being ruined by something that could be so easy to avoid. I don't want you becoming my brother. I know you're better than that. You know it too. Why not change for the better? Nothing would make me happier. I want to talk to you again and never be angry with you. Just...please. I want you to be happy again. For us to be happy again. It's hard to say I love you to a person who doesn't love you back, who isn't sorry And no. A dear person had told me that if a person loved you and was truly sorry, they would never do things to the person they loved. Then how can you smoke so care-free and not give a damn? How much do you love me now? You just doesn't know how much it hurts to just watch you waste away.
I'm sorry.
Whos That Guy · Sat Jan 31, 2009 @ 05:01am · 1 Comments |