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2008: In The Beginning
Where did you go on New Years?: Phil's I believe
Who were you with?: phil, katie, phil's mom... simon i think...
Did you kiss anyone at midnight?: nope, i've never had a new year's kiss
Did you make any resolutions?: to lose weight, like usual.

2008: Your Love Life
Did you break up with anyone?: No
Did you get anything for Valentine's day?: chocolates from my brother and his fiance.
Did you meet anyone special? not that i dated
Did you fall in love?: i think i might, but i'm not sure.

2008: Friends and Enemies
Did you meet any new friends this year?: yea
Did any of your friendships end?: i think so...
Did you dislike anyone?: yes.
Did you make any new enemies?: yes.
Did you resolve any fights?: Yes.
Who did you grow apart from?: high school friends. Phil...
Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?: i don't think so

2008: Your BIRTHDAY!
Did you have a cake?: YES! I ate it with the Sweet Charity crew. smile
Did you have a party?: yes, bowling party.
Did you get any presents?: yes.
If so what was the best thing you got?: i don't remember

2008: All about YOU
Did you change at all this year?: yes.
Did you dye your hair?: No
Did you get your hair cut?: no
Did you change your style?: i don't think so
Were you in school?: yes.
Did you get good grades?: yes. smile
Did you have a job?: no, sadly
Did you drive?: of course. smile
Did you own a car?: sadly, no.
Did anyone close to you give birth?: nope.
Did you move at all?: yes, to canton. smile
Did you go on any vacations?: nope, i haven't vacationed in years.
Did you leave the country at all?: i wish
Would you change anything about yourself now?: I'd love to knock off 100lbs, remove my reliance on kyle, be more charismatic... be happy. smile

2008: Wrap Up.
Is 2008 a good year?: well, for me? not really.
Did 2008 bring any new insights?: not really.
Do you think 2009 will top 2008?: i hope it will be better.

confessions of in 2008...
(x) stayed single for the whole year
( ) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
(x) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker ((Oh all the time))
( ) mooned someone
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) had a good relationship with someone
(x) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) came out of the closet
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) had/have a relationship with someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under mistletoe

SCHOOL
( ) took an honors/advanced/enriched class
( ) broke the dress code
( ) sent to the principles office for misbehavior
( ) got straight A's
( ) met one teacher you really like
( ) met one teacher you really hated
( ) failed a class
(x) skipped school
( ) did something you were proud of.
( ) discovered a new talent
(x) proved yourself an idiot
( ) embarrassed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
( ) intentionally tripped someone at school
( ) got lead in the school play
( ) made a varsity team ?
( ) were involved in something you'll never forget

OTHER
( ) painted a picture
( ) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog on MySpace
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) went to a sleepover
(x) went camping
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) visited a foreign country
( ) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
(x) partied to celebrate the new year ((will do that))
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something/someone important to you
(x) lied about how old you were
( ) prank called someone

In 2008 I...
[ ] broke a promise
[ ] fallen out of love
[x] lied
[x] went behind your parents back
[x] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[ ] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed your life
[ ] met one of your idols
[ ] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[ ] pretended to be sick
[ ] left the country
[ ] given up something important to you
[ ] lost something expensive
[ ] learned something new about yourself
[ ] tried something you normally wouldnt try and liked it
[ ] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[ ] met great people (amazing people)
[x] stayed up til sunrise
[x] Cried over the silliest thing
[ ] was rarely home on weekends
[ ] got into a car accident
[x] had friends who were drifting away from you
[ ] had someone close to you die
[ ] had a high cell phone bill
[x] spent most of your money on food
[ ] had a fist fight
[ ] went to the beach with your best friend
[ ] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time.
[x] became closer with a lot of people

With 2008 Coming To an End, Do This and BE HONEST !

1. Have you had any relationships this year? i wouldn't count the thing with phil a relationship
2. Have you had your birthday yet? Yes
3. Kissed two or more people in the same night? yes
4. Pulled an all nighter? Yes
5. Puked at all? not that i remember
7. Went Camping? yea
8. Bought something(s)? duh
9. Met someone special? well, i already knew him...
10. Been out of the country? No
12. What are you thinking about? right now? kyle, and kyle... lol. two different people. smile

1.) Hugged someone? Yes
2.) Slept in someone elses bed? oh, yea. wow, it was a while ago... lol
3.) Got a job? i wish
4.) Loaned out money? god yes, and i still regret it.
5.) Gotten in a car accident? no, thank God. *knocks on wood*
6.) Gone over your mobile phone bill? Nope
7.) Been called a slut? yea. i believe it was my own mother who said it... :/
8.) Done something you regret? i regret most things in my life.


Ten Things About Your Love Life

01. Have you ever been in love this year?: i don't know for sure if it's love...
02. Do you believe in love?: it can happen.
04. This year have you ever been heartbroken? no.
05. This year have you broken someone's heart: i don't think so.
06. This year have you ever fallen for your best friend? i did, but i don't think it was meant to work out.
07. Have you loved someone but never told them?: no. i don't think so.
08. Are you afraid of commitment? no, it would be a nice change of pace actually. lol

NAUGHTY

01. Have you drank alcohol this year? yes. smile
02. Have you smoked this year? once.
03. Have you done drugs this year? no. i don't believe in that s**t.
04. Have you been kicked out of a store this year? no.
05. Have you shoplifted this year? No
06. This year have you gotten a detention? No
07. Have you cheated on a test this year? cheating is not worth it..
08. Have you raced this year? no.
09. This year have you broken the law? i carried a switch blade for a while, so yea. but i don't carry any more.
10. Have you lied to your parent(s)?: yea. i lie everyday because if i didn't then s**t would fly and i would feel worse than i already do.

Yea... if only today was just any other Tuesday night... but it's not. It's the Tuesday before Christmas. There's no school to take my mind off of things, there's no one for me to talk to, and there's no release of everything when i see him; because i won't see him. We were talking about getting together to hang out, but I doubt it will happen. For some reason, i think he has the power to take the weight off of my shoulders... I wish i knew why he seems to have that power over me... I think right now i would dye for one of his hugs right now... lol (yes, i know i said "dye", it was on purpose)

But I was able to talk to kyle r tonight. I liked him right after i met kyle f a few years ago. i got to really know kyle r while i was dating the older brother of one of his friends. He was just such a great guy to me, and i found myself falling for him after not too long. We used to talk on the phone late into the night, about anything and everything, and sometimes about nothing. We shared songs that we both liked and we used to cuddle at school and i was just so comfortable with him. I loved it, and i think at one point i loved him. We hadn't talked in over a year until tonight, when he IMed me on AIM. Now i miss the way things used to be. And it also reminds me of how things are right now, and that i will get over kyle f; it's just gonna take some time...

smile So this has done nothing for me... lol. It hasn't helped, but i guess I should be happy that it also hasn't hurt. lol.

until another evening. *bows*