So i figured out why i was so flambouiant yesterday. I was dreading singing tonight. Its really stupid but its required so i must attend but for some reason i chose today to feel angry about it. I just cant see the purpose anymore. I keep putting myself out there so that maybe one day i would finally get into a play or have a sole or something, maybe even a small ensambl but NO! scream I cant seem to do anything right and they keep choseing the same people to do things over and over again even if their vioces dont' fit the mood of the music. its just cause their loud enough to get noticed and they keep nagging at him all day. Their suck ups every last one of them. even if they really arent and dont know it themselves. I just want them to go away so that i can take their places. ninja Obviously thats not going to happen but i wish. crying its toward the end of the term so anything i say to the teacher could go straight into the grade book, even though i'm a good student and i know that it wont i'm not willing to take that chance. In essance my emotions are every where and i just want to scream at people and be a drop out and skip. But like i said its the end of the quarter and i cant do that evil
 KanaWhoSwims · Wed Mar 21, 2007 @ 12:57am · 0 Comments |
