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Over the past few months, i've gotten extremely close to one of my best friends, Jordyn. We have fun all the time, seeing movies, bowling, going to a concert, and all that fun shiz. But recently, my attraction to her was undeniably strong, and i coudnt help tell her. She never actually turned me down, and actually said she liked me as well. I was so happy, happier, in fact, than i've been in years. Then some trouble started happening with her ex, and i was there for her while it was going on, and i really hoped she would see me as the person to go to when she wanted help. Unfortunately, i got my wish.
About two weeks later, I had given her the time she wanted when i had asked her out, and she never answered me straight. A week later, she told me she also liked another guy, ironically with the same name as me. Well, i was worried, but i had given her space like she had asked. When i asked again, she said she liked me still, but really liked him also. She wanted help deciding, so i decided to let her make her own choice, and didnt even ask for a chance. That's probably my mistake. She chose him.
But she seems so secretive now. She's left out a lot when telling me things.
For instance, she never told me that she also liked the other guy at the same time, and was deciding which one to choose. So i felt like the loser. Then she told me it wuld be weird to date me, because we're so close (which doesnt make sense) ad it would be weird to kiss me. Thanks for the low-blow on the ego. Then she invited me to a concert a few weeks before i stood down, and never told me or my other friend that he was going. Even after i told her it was awkward seeing them together, she never told me, and when i went, she ignored me for most of the time. Holding hands, holding each other, and not a care that i was two feet behind them, suffering the entire time. I was practically ignored until my other friends showed up later.
I dont know why i can't let her go, and especially after all this, i dont know why i would still like her. I need some advice.