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I am a skinny person. I would probably be considered underweight for my age, but I haven't actually stepped on a scale in probably two years. My friends have remarked that I am skinny, and I can see my ribs if I suck in my stomach. I realize that I could not be called fat by someone using any reasonable comparison.
Despite the fact that I know this, I always feel guilty when I eat "too much." Most of my family is overweight, and I am absolutely terrified of becoming "fat." I'm not entirely sure where this fear originates, but it is a powerful force inside me.
Today, I only ate one meal. I was asleep until early afternoon and thus missed both breakfast and lunch with my friends. I did not eat until dinner-time came around. I ate two slices of pizza, a small bowl of spaghetti, and a few breadsticks. And that was it. As I walked back to my apartment a few hours later, I started feeling as if I had eaten too much.
I have joked with some of my friends that I would probably be anorexic if I had the willpower. This is the first time where I have actually wondered if I might have some psychological issue I need to try working out with a counselor/therapist/whatever.
For the record, though, today was not a normal day for me as far as food intake is concerned. As my friends could also attest, I may not eat much at any one time, but I usually eat three or four times a day.
ArathReaper · Mon Sep 25, 2006 @ 02:18am · 1 Comments |
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I like to think I am a good student. I do the reading and the homework assigned by my professors. I work diligently on any project I am assigned. I try to limit class absences as much as possible. I pay attention in class, and I take good notes.
The seats in my college speech class are in a bracket-like ([) pattern with some seating between the two legs of the bracket. I sit on the very end of one of the legs. This worked very well for me for the first part of the class. I could see the teacher and his PowerPoint presentation at the same time just by looking straight ahead.
Now, however, a complication has entered my view. An absolutely gorgeous athlete has chosen to sit in front of me, and as such I have a perfect and unobstructed view of his profile and his body. He has the body of a Greek god, and I am finding it increasingly difficult to focus on anything other than him in class.
Either he hasn't noticed my lascivious staring or he doesn't mind. From what little I know of the guy, I would guess the former is more accurate. He's asome kind of Bible major, so I doubt he'd be too fond of my ogling.
Then again, maybe he shouldn't be wearing those teasingly tight shirts and those hole-filled, leg-hugging jeans. He's sort of asking to be checked out, right?
ArathReaper · Wed Sep 20, 2006 @ 10:38pm · 0 Comments |
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After a long break from Gaia, I have returned. I had forgotten how much fun I had poking around the forums and playing with my avatar. I transferred all of my things to my new name, and I have slightly changed my look. I don't suppose that matters much, though, as it seems the people I called friends then have now either left Gaia or are taking a break of their own.
Well, like last time, I live in the Extended Discussion and the Life Issues forums offering my opinions and advice whenever I see fit. Feel free to disagree. I like winning arguments. biggrin
ArathReaper · Wed Sep 13, 2006 @ 10:27pm · 0 Comments |
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