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Happy Holidays!
No... I'm not talking about Easter.
Although I hope y'all are enjoying the Easter event. smile

Sorry, I haven't posted in a while. I haven't been on Gaia as much as I used to be. I've been busy with stuff in real life. I still like chatting on here every now and I like playing games but I'm not as obsessed with questing and such. I've just got too much going on in my life right now to worry about virtual stuff.

I've had a lot of drama in my life lately, and I don't mean the kind on stage either. *sigh* Everything will be okay. Things are looking up. I got back together with my ex-girlfriend but we found it wasn't really going to work. So we've decided we aren't going to be exclusive. I'm happy with this. I'm a huge flirt. I don't want to stop being whorish right now. xp

I got a new webcam! Wombat gave it me. Yay! whee

I was bored and testing it out yesterday. hehe

The Day of Silence was amazing. I didn't really expect to get much out of it. I did though. It was a major flashback to elementary and middle school. I didn't talk much back then and when I did I was actually expressing myself I was just speaking because people expected me to and so I would just talk and say what I figured people wanted me to say. I felt very lonely most of the time. Whenever I spoke my mind I was put down for it. Everything I said ended up being shoved in my face. In sociology class today we were talking about prejudice and we watched a video about how a teacher convinced people that blue eyed people were worse than brown eyed people. Whenever a blue eyed person tried to speak up for themselves it was shoved back in their face. If a blue eyed person tried to defend themselves then the teacher would point out how the blue eyed person was being argumentative and stuff. Well that's how I felt when I was younger. I could not speak up for myself or defend myself because then people would say that I was conceded or I had anger problems or something. Actually, I still feel this way a lot, possibly even worse because I realize now that it isn't just me that people are judging by my actions and words. If I screw up people say that's how Christians, Catholics, whites, gays, or trans people are. It is not all in my head. People do judge like that. There have been a few times when I was upset about something and someone said something along the lines of "She is having trouble in life because she is gay. If you live in sin like that it will eat away at you." Other times people have said stuff like "She's stressed out. Christians always blow things out of proportion and get stressed out like that. Christianity just adds stress." Yes I have heard people say stuff like this! And so it is so much easier to just sit back and keep quiet and try to sneak past without being noticed because then you don't have as much of a chance to screw up.

Yayness! My good friend [Spartan_Prep] drew me avi art because he's just awesome like that. blaugh

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Sorry for the lack of updates. I know you all missed my short random pointless entries. Anyways, yea, I've been out having a real life lately. Unusual for me I know. lol Well, I better go because I'm going somewhere tonight and my ride should be here soon. 3nodding

I got my hair cut. It's really short now. I love it. biggrin I'll post pictures later. I'm too lazy right now. XP

I edited my profile again and put some pictures of me up there. ^.^

I'm enjoying the nice warm weather lately! 3nodding

Haha, yes I am being a dork and talking about the weather but oh well. xp