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Theres something like nine days left of school and by golly (which is the only time I will EVER say that EVER) I can't wait. It seems like everything is dragging on until you realize exactly how much work you have to do before that date. I, for example, have to figure out how to get all of my grades up, and quickly. I also have to figure out what college I'm giong to, and whatnot. honestly it all sucks...though I suppose that sounds very emo or pessamistic.(sp) Either way, I CAN'T WAIT UNTIL THIS IS ALL OVER!

There's something like three weeks of school left. This both seems like too much, and not enough time. Its so weird. I hate school quite a bit, yet I don't want it to near it's end because I have so much to figure out. First of all, I have to manage my time like a mad woman, somehow managing to bring up any grade that may happen to be below a "B," and second, I get to figure outr what to do for the rest of my life.What happens now? Darn iiiit....I need a college! I should also get out of the navy, if thats how I'm going to do things....

Not to mention expo....This poses the problem of whether or not i can go, and if so, with who? It turns out that most of the people who told me that they could go are now rethinking it...I really want to see clamp though. -.-

Anyways...this will be a short post because 2am is a late night for a person who has gone to school for two days in a row with a fever. (Yay for having perfect attendance even with major sicknesses, yet still somehow getting unexcused absences for being there.)

You see....absolutly no one reads these at all. I had a feeling that was true, but now I know! mwhahaha!

So yeah...I get to figure everything out by thursday....Yay! (not really) Honestly I don't know what to do. This whole navy/college thing is terribly annoying. I almost wish there was such a thing as neverneverland, where you'd never grow up. If I had some sort of plan that i could honestly love, then I'd be willing to take the next step...but now what? I don't know what to do. I REALLY don't know what to do, and it scares me so so much. I think my mom wants me to go into the navy because it would be a good way to start and they'd always take care of you and blah blah blah, but I don't know if I want to take that route. I'd prefer to get out of it now and leave it open as an option, but I don't even know if I can do that.

Its funny, honestly I haven't completely told any of my friends the extent of this problem. I'll tell them that I don't know what to do, but thats it. I'd rather them not worry about it, yet I so wish for their, or someone's help.

bah! I'm starting to sound stupid. I don't want to sound like all of the stupid posts that I used to put on here last year.

Anyways, if by any chance someone actually does read this, are there any suggestions?

I just noticed how many of my journal entries I had started off with "wow." I must sound like such a dork. xp Anyways, it turns out that you are usually supposed to say something either interesting or useful in these things. I guess I usually don't. sweatdrop

I don't completely know why, but I seriously feel like I'm getting VERY burned out of school. I mean I literally can't wait until the end of class. Its only class too. Obviously most people are not fond of school, but (and I know this sounds terribly depressing and most likely annoying for an eighteen year old girl to be whining about something like this) the more I'm in those classes, listening to those teachers and remembering that this last progress grade was the lowest one that I've ever gotten I feel like crying, or maybe like jumping of of a bridge. I'm not at all an emo kid, but I hate the idea of not knowing what to do. How do I bring my grades up? Do greades even matter? What do I do when I graduate? Should I go into the navy like I had planned to up until about a month ago? Do I want to give my life away to the navy for about four to eight years? Do I want to go through college and try to find a bunch of scholarships in the next two months? Would I even be accepted?

Honestly I've been going through questions like these for the past month, and I don't know what to do.

So I've got about forty days of High School left. Within that time i have to either find a college that would accept me, take my SAT and ACT, or figure out whether or not I really want to join the Navy. This is one of those decisions that you can figure out which one would be the best, but you just really, really, really don't want to do it. ESPECIALLY because I can't run a mile and a half in fourteen minutes.

I'll finish this later.

Wow...so I'm done with the acadeca competition. I kind of sucked, and it was my last one ever, but who cares. ITS OVER!!!

So anyways, I've been trying to find some friends that i can really have fun talking to on here. so anyone who likes to talk pm me! Anyways....I think I'll get back to trying to get my coco kitty....


HAVE A NICE DAY!!!!

Wow....its been awhile since I've posted on here...I forgot I even had this....*Ahem* Well, I have two weeks until the acadeca competition. That means that i have to learn everything about the renaiscance (including how to spell it >.< wink Within that about of time. erkk...I'll finish later..

its a bit funny how environments and music are tied into memories. I've been off of school for about a week now and whenever I hear old songs from last summer, or feel the heat and humidity of the huose without air conditioning, I begin to think about last summer. <--- very run on sentence.

Anyways, I start thinking about the things that i used to like, the music that i used to download, the friends that i used to have. Its trully funny how things work. I think about how I was a year ago and how much I changed since then. I don't know if anyone else every thinks aboput things like that. I just think its a bit funny.

ANyways...its currently 3:30am. I'm going to bed. Oyasumi nasai!!!

Hello all!! I do believe that this will be the busiest week that I've had in awhile...I doubt I'll be getting much sleep. We get out of school next Tuesday! I'm happy about that, but I hate it when teachers pile up assignments. I have about seven assignments due by Friday. Not only that but my Mom's Birthday is tomorrow. I have this really cool idea for one of her birthday presents, but becasue of all of the homework I don't think I'll be able to finish it until later. It sucks....

SO yeah, I don't think I'll be on very often this week, which also really sucks. I am glad that they finished the de bugging and such though. Gaia had quite awhile there where it wouldn't even let me log in. Anyways, I better get back to my homework. Yay! scream stressed