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Feb. 14, 10
Well, i guess i better start from the beginning huh?
Well, for some stupid reason i decided to go back out with you
I wanted to make it work, and i really thought it would this time!
But, deep down i knew....that nothing was going to change....
Nothing ever has changed....all you did was keep flirting with her...
You promised you'd stop, i straight up asked you the night you asked me out
and what did you say?
You said you'd stop
and i told you if you didnt then i was done...
Obviously i must mean NOTHING to you!
Thats why you were hiding everything right?
I knew it, the second you started hiding your phone
and erasing your texts i knew something was up
But oh, silly me thought i could trust you!
So, then you say not to go on your myspace
and stay out of your personal stuff
Okay, first of all, you deleted me off myspace
and when we started going back out i readded you
but you declined my request
I really thought nothing of it...cuz you told me you dont log on myspace anymore...
So then friday i decide to go onto your profile....
and wow, i found out a lot..................
First of all, you and angie were going out a couple of days before you asked me out
So does this mean you two were dating the whole time me and you were???
Second, her profile
Holy ******** did that hurt,
She had a whole long paragraph about you
and how...
shes always going to be your "baby girl // babykinz"
and how she loves how "cute c" you are with her on the phone
and the best part, how she "cant wait to be your wife"
WHAT THE ******** IS THIS s**t?
oh, and then
"A.G
+
A.S"
Oh! and she has pictures of YOU holding HER and SMILING
Do you know how long it took me to get you to take a pic with me!?
and even now you wont smile in them!!!!!!!!
So, is all this why you wouldnt add me back on myspace?
Because you knew you were flirting with her? And you knew you werent going to stop??
OH i almost forgot, plus the day before you left her a comment saying
"i love you babiie"
How could you?! I pretty much gave up chris to prove to you that i wanted this to work
But you couldnt even stop talking to angie FOR A DAY
so all you did was prove to me that you wanted her
and that im a HUGE IDIOT for believing this time would be different!
I guess the saying is right
PEOPLE NEVER CHANGE

Aug 22
guess whos back?
angie is
isnt that ******** shocker?
and now you have your rule of
i cant look thru your text messages.
why? so that way you can flirt with her?
like you always do? hmm?
i bet that is why ^^
well great
once i catch you flirting, thats it
my last straw. im done with that
im not putting up with it anymore
its gunna hurt
but im tired of her
and s**t, if you wanna flirt with her so much
then fine, cuz im not gunna be
by your side while your doing it.
then you wanna call and get mad at me
because im getting jealous thinking
"oh she was talking to her all day..."
******** you then alright?
i hate her
i hate when you talk to her
i hate the fact shes still around
i hate that you always talk about her
then you wanna call me and say
"why did you text me? who are you texting?"
and i didnt even ******** text you
._____________.
so dont yell at me about how im getting you mad
your getting me mad, all the time
i was happy when your phone was broke
i really was
that meant you couldnt text her
and it was a great feeling =)
but nope, now you got a new phone
and you can text with it all day in school
just like you used to!!!
like last year for example
you were in study hall and i had lunch
sooo that meant i could actually text
but nopppe!!!
you texted angie instead!
becuz shes so damn important
that you would risk getting your phone taken away
for her and not me

4/07/09
love....a small four letter word, but its a word that can change your life....
i dont know what to think of you, i love you soo much, but sometimes im just so confused, baby, i know your changing, but its been over a year....and...im scared nothings really going to change....its not like im miserable.....but...sometimes its just so hard to believe that you love me.....you know i love you and id do anything for you, sure, i made mistakes...but i havent made that many.....sure, i cheated, but i was tired of your s**t and i loved the attention i got from him, i said im sorry&its over with, it was last year. then orlando, okay fine, we were getting to close...but he was my best friend and now look at us, we dont even talk anymore, and okay, i did go to his house alone, but if i would have told you, you would have freaked out...just like u did when you found out....and what did we do when i was there? i went on myspace. then we went to the movies, and you went with!
you say angies gone, but its sooo hard to believe that, you said that before and the next day her # was back in your phone......yeah okay, shes been your friend longer, thats nice, but IM YOUR GIRLFRIEND shes your FRIEND theres a difference. i dont flirt with my friends, i get HUGS but im not sticking my hand down their shirt and THEY ARENT DOING IT TO ME, ALONE IN THE ******** BATHROOM, AND I LOVE HOW YOU GOT MAD AT ME WHEN I WALKED AWAY, WHAT THE ******** WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO? LAUGH AND SAY HAHAH YOUR SO FUNNY =) ******** NO! IM NOT GUNNA SIT THERE WHILE YOUR IN THE BATHROOM AND SHES TRYING TO REACH DOWN YOUR SHIRT, THATS BULLSHIT. THEN YOU YELL AT ME THAT YOUR GUNNA GET IN TROUBLE WITH YOUR DAD CUZ I WALKED OUT, OH ******** WELL, MAYBE YOU SHOULDNT HAVE BEEN DOING THAT. HELL, EVEN YOUR BROTHER NOTICED YOU WERE FLIRTING, AND HES 10. THEN, WE GO BACK BY HER CUZ IM LIKE OKAY, ANOTHER CHANCE, SO I GIVE YOU MY HEART TO HOLD AGAIN, AND YOU GRAB HER AROUND THE WAIST.....why...?
why cant you love me the way you love her? what makes her so amazing....im sorry im not like her....im sorry...i'd change and try to be like her to make you happy....then maybe you'd love me the same way....
but you say shes gone......so....maybe you will love me now.....but babe.....i dont think i can handle much more....im getting sssooo tired of it....a person can only take so much before they break....and im so close to my breaking point......
i want someone who loves me......not there friends......
if you ever happen to read this, im sorry....but somethings i need to say that im too scared to say to your face....