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How long has it been since I've written here?

Its not like I was the most diligent writer on the block anyway. I write too much as it is. Anyway my writing seems to be strengthening again so I'm back and hoping to have some fun investing in my talents and maybe I'll learn something new this time again.

Sometimes we wonder why and only find what. It makes sense atleast to me it does...

Well I took eddie to get his contacts today.sniff. The little twerps growing up. Then I went to san jac and signed up for some classes. I nearly cried over my 150 dollar math book.I don't even like the math and yet I have to pay the most for the worst subject.

I went to the school afterwards and picked up my year book and ate lunch with whats left of the gang. Everybody seemed really depressed today and I couldn't figure out why it was a beautifully dreary and stormy day. Like I told nomi its not my style to show up on a sun shining day.

Got my yearbook and started flipping through it. And new revelation hit me that I have been flipping over in my mind since march but only now when it comes to mind. I had a choice to make in my years at FBCA that would have directed alot of what I did. There were two roads to take I believe I took the wrong one now of course. But the thought of what would have it been like if I took the other path mull around in my mind. Mostly looking at the yearbook really brought up the reoccuring thought. I love the fact that I'm being fague enough to where nobody can clue in on what I'm talking about. Even though it sounds redundant I like to keep some secrets to myself. The only way I can explain it is that sometimes you like to throw your thoughts into the void and see what echos back.

And whats that secret word t.o.t.g.a.

Ah things go up hill down hill and up hill and down into a chasm of doom. I have come to understand the fact that I think I operate better without people I mean who needs them. The last thing I want to do is have to carry someone elses burden or them carry mine. I use to be like that in a far far away time. And I'm starting to understand things were normal then. Is it wrong to think that way. Or is it just inhuman? Things to wonder about.....

Well life continues as well it should right I always forget to get on gaia even though I really do try. I got a job so my computer time is at about zero now. And I just got a new computer so that kinda sucks. But anyways I'm going to try harder to get back on I miss all yall guys I haven't talk to in a while so try to get hold of me and let me know when you're on.

Hmm lets see the title is pretty self explanatory Well my girlfriend cheated on me about a week ago today and that just about made everything else suck. I haven't focused in school much and grades I bet are dropping now. But I'm finally starting to pull out of this nose dive. It has just become a very crappy new year and with feb 14th coming around the corner things aren't going to be getting better any time soon.

It starts tomorrow School the only thing worse than school would be......uh......more school?.. I got nothing...anyway it isn't so bad being a senior and all atleast I can look at this as the last semester of school I have. Oh that sounds so sweet to say my last semester of school.........ah......complete satisfaction............until later.............adios