i hate stress. i really do. unfortunately, the cause of my stress is my job. sometimes i feel like i should get a raise for the bullshit this damn company feeds me on a daily basis. and this work related stress is starting to take an effect on me physically. i'm smoking more than i have in years. i'm never hungry anymore, and rarely eat. people are telling me that i'm looking ill, even though i feel pretty healthy, despite the run down feeling. the fact that i'm barely sleeping probably doesn't help any. i can go to bed anywhere between 4 and 6 am, and end up waking up for no reason between 8 and 9 am. and it's getting more and more difficult to fall asleep, let alone wind down from work. i swear, i'm either gonna snap on the next moron they put with me, snap on the supervisor, or suffer a massive coronary unless something gives. something's gotta give. hopefully it isn't my body that does first. i need to find a way to relieve this stress before it either drives me insane or throws me in the hospital from malnourishment and exhaustion. i've tried exercise, and though it tires me out physically, my mind won't slow down. i refuse to take sleeping pills for fear of another addiction. (for those that don't know, i've overcome a cocaine and heroin addiction in the past.) i've tried meditation, but i just can't get my mind into the relaxed state required for it. somebody please help me. help me calm myself down before i do any more damage to myself or others.
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