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how is it i have been likeing and falling for girls
and as i start to accutally smile and mean it
they get a boyfriend
i guess i am just a ******** up
a used product no one wants

i want to put a bullet through my heart and a knife in my head
wait i ******** that up too
i want to put a knife through my heart and a bullet in my head

******** christ why do i have to keep my promises
i want to start playing with my knives again
for the first time in a long time
i dont want someone i can hold
i need someone to hold me

in the end i will just end up someones pet
cause its the only time of girl i can manage to keep
i was hopeing i could find someone that
i could take my collar off for and give it to her
so i wouldnt be her pet
but that hope is gone for now

sweet nitemares everyone
-russell