requiem for a dream has totally ******** humped out my good mood, I was all warm and giddy after just ******** around with my friends for four hours but after watching this alone....... I am drained, and depressed. this movie is ******** potent, it's the most depressing thing I've ever seen. Nothing that was not about me, ever made me feel like this. Call me a narcissist, but I barely think of the holocaust as a historical fact than it is reality. I don't do drugs and I just am really anti-anti-anti about drugs because people just get ******** up and fall apart with them. It wasn't about the drugs, but the spiraling pit these people were in, and honestly it wasn't about me but about humans. There are two polar extremes in this world, those who want to make a living and those who strive for their dreams. and when we're just down there and we have no where to go but up, you see how the ******** world treats you. When you're no longer needed for your TV monkey dances or to work in their labor force, when you want something that is impossible in your situation but you're still asking for so little- this world ******** you over. I could be that depressed widow, I could be someone strugging to make a dollar.
I try to ignore my economical status and think I can go to college on grants because I work so hard, but I know that there are people better off who have privilages and work as hard as me and because they have that extra boost in cash, they have an advantage to me.
And what pisses me off, is that you need some minimum income to live on or you can never reach too high as high unless you were so damn lucky. I have to fight to pull myself among the ranks of the people who can have careers and dreams and I'm like "I am 16, and I have to fight to live? You mean that when you don't have money you sink or swim?"
Sometimes I am just so ready to give up and just become another fallout of your society. I don't want to help anyone anymore because it's just putting more pressure on me and being the critic, the cynic is easier than being an achiever and actually making an impact. It's sometimes better to ignore everything and just try to be content with what you have and just try to pass by like everyone else and if it's too much, dope it up, sedate yourself so you don't scream and complain becuase no one wants to hear about real problems.
People think that people are poor because they're bums- alot of people are ******** poor because the government steps on you when you don't have money because you are no benefit, they will take your money, send you to jail and spit you out and you're supposed to restart everything, and even better like as if you lost your limbs because not only that but you're disabled by your record. your record is tarnished because you were born in a situation you cannot fix and to alleviate some pressure on your situation, you will have to do something that could endanger you. People feel unsafe one moment and they run out to get ADT, Brinks... whatever. Poor people are always unsafe and do whatever it takes to keep themselves afloat. the government is like, uh nooooooo yer dragin down our society.
********! You never give them a chance! You ******** rape them and leave them by the curb, you give them nothing, you take everything, why do you think people hate the government? It's not all about abortion or gay marriages to everyone. The government is asphyxiation. We're not asking for dependence, we're telling you to ******** off and stop hoarding all the benefits for the privilaged classes. If they ever felt life was precious they'd do more about our "poverty", stop with your shitty iraq crap and help your own people. Why does someone who works so ******** hard get only 10.38 an hour to wipe the butts of the privilaged? is that even a living wage? why is it only enough to pay off debts.
this is a whole lot of bitching and complaining surely from someone who is just a naive 16 year old girl, but I'm not someone else, i'm not the average gaian suburbanite with office parents and rebound plan incase you don't pass high school.
I'm that one kid who's the hope of 7 people who be sent off to college on a scholarship, or grant and get out of school within 4 years to rack in the money as soon as possible to help make money for my brothers to go to college, to establish myself and start my rabbit family as soon as possible. I don't want that, but it's expected from me because everything will be the same if I don't and what is is right now is not what I want. what is ideal is not what I want. Why do I have to be a ******** pawn, I just wanted to just help alleviate the problems of our own nation, just show someone some compassion we never felt and just make them feel some humanity so there's a reason to live, not ******** everything up because nothing is good anymore. I'm ******** sick of politics because politics is about privilaged white elderly people. This is "life" issue, not politics. It's a stark reality not a debate. junkies get high because they're not better off so to avoid your situation you get ******** up. I think that instead of being another mass of poor junkies in this DC - Balitmore area, how about I try to pull off some miracle and then become someone who was just insane enough to tell them what's on their mind and then get assassinated for what we stand for because it's so right they can't take it.
******** tired of your stupid dead babies, dead soldiers, elderly, your sexuality wars.
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