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i dont really know what to do anymore, like i was hoping everything would sort itself out and i would be able to get on...well that we would be able to get on, but its like he broke my heart 3 times only knowing it once...i guess i have to deal with the fact that i cant love him, cant love anyone around him like that, and if i want to love someone im going to have to look very hard for him or i'll just have to lower my standards a little bit. isnt this stupid, its like the classic story, girl falls for boy, boy uses girl, girl looks for another boy to repair her heart. Seriously man i could write a novel about this...

happy easter!

annoying x boyfirends wont leave you alone!!

depression is horrible, its almost just as horrible for the people around the depressed person, but everyone gets through it usually

you know it really bugs me when somebody goes into a topic in the forums just to talk s**t about it. Theres no point on that. and then more then half the time people turn the entire topic into something else really gay and stupid

Have you ever felt like you were supposed to be somebody else, something different, maybe not even human. Well I for one have felt that. People always say just be glad you wern't born into a different family but really there was no chance of that happening if you had actually been listening to grade 9 science. Have you ever wished you could be something differnt? Like when i was a child I wished I could be a mermaid and every time I went to the beach I imagined what that would be like. Sometimes I wish I was a fish on the beautiful coral reefs swimming in and out of spaces that you didn't even see there. Or a bird. To fly over the sky and nothing else was around except for the air whipping by you as you cut through it.

Or maybe you wished there was something about you that nobody or at least almost nobody had. Something that made you different and made you have to stay away from other people. I for one have read and found out, maybe it would be cool if there really was people like that out there. And I'm not talking about super human strength kind of people. No no no. Vampires. Werewolve. Other supernatural beings that you would never have thought existed..

just bored xp and nothing to do...as usual. YA my life is SOOO eventful lol

oh and science is SOOOO completely boring for me right now!!

no job search lol. BUT avril was amazing!!!! lol

job search this weekend so thats a woot! blaugh and a BLAH gonk