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I'm tired of this freaking crap. I'm tired of thinking about it! and i'm tired of being FORCED to think about it. i'm pissed, and it's for the most ridiculous reason! freaking stupi kid. yeah, he's like a brother to me, and i never saw him as anything more than that. We were amazing friends for about 2 years, and it was a great time, all the freaking time. I laughed when he chased Jayden around the house, and i cried when he told me that poor doggie passed away... his mom loved me like i was her second daughter :3 She told me everything about him about linds, andrew and josh. her entire family; she took me hours away to watch him play bball and football. it was amazing. but then he got to be a little bit of a jerk, and we stayec friends, sorta : He's more of the popular kids NOW, but he never really used to be lol. Which idc. i'm friends with everyone, but he changed, for the worse, which again is fine, but most of the time, i can't handle big changes. so spending less and less time with him, and him not telling me what was going on drove me insane. but i got over it, and talked to him when i wanted and he talked to me. i know i'll always be able to call him bawling and he'll listen to what i'm talking about. and vice versa. he's come to me crying before, and we got threw it :3 i loved that kid. he was part of my family, but i had this stupid dream last night, and i've been thinking about it for a lil while now... and the more i think about it, i've had more dreams about that kid ! freaking jerk a**. so this dream meant nothing, until i realized i was thinking more and more about it today... it was strange for me i guess.. either way, i hated it with a passion. until idk, i guess i miss him, a lot more than i thought. i'm still not admitting anything to myself, b.c i'm afraid to. lmao. it'd ruin it all... ironically enough that's the song i'm listening to... well that line just came on <D
So YEAH that's cool.... just veting. :3
 mogi no sakurifaisu · Thu Aug 20, 2009 @ 11:44pm · 0 Comments |
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