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I see the people around me make bad decisions, I myself make stupid ones. But why at the time does it feel so right? Why at the time are we led to believe it is correct? We sometimes make good ones, don’t get me wrong. But the ones that are bad, can destroy lives, and even leave people with nothing better to do then die. But we still thought it was the best decision. I will never understand this all… Why can’t we have a vision of what a decision will lead to? Why can’t we just be forced to make the right one?
It’s terrible to know that you will never be able to talk to your best friend again because their partner cheated on them then broke up with them. Why can’t we have something in us that tells us it will be ok?
The feeling of not feeling wanted or loved is possibly the second worse feeling there is, and it doesn’t take long for that feeling to take over and even if someone close really does love you, you don’t believe it. That could soon lead to depression or worse… Why are we so stupid that we can’t see what we want to see, we only see what we let ourselves believe, and that isn’t always the best thing.
The first worse feeling is the feeling of loosing someone close to you, and if not close then someone you had a strong connection with, maybe an old friend. In our minds we go through all the good times we had with them, then it hits us that they won’t be there anymore or anything, and those memories are the last things we have of them. And it might not be death either, it could be simply a boyfriend or girlfriend. Knowing that they really didn’t love you enough to keep going is hard, and knowing that you can’t tell them everything, as it doesn’t feel right. I’ve been in many relationships and thought they were the one, and I know I’m young but at the time when you talk about your future with them, planning kids and houses. That’s when it gets harder to forget them because when you buy your first house or have your first child, you will remember the people you were going to have this with. And once again, when you realise that your love wasn’t as strong as you thought it was it really hurts. And makes you want to sell that house or not have those kids. But you still do it because that’s how life goes on.
Another thing I find hard is to know that they don’t even want to be friends with you, when they only contact you when they need something or because you approached them first. It’s like everything you thought you had wasn’t really there and you were just a ******** to think it could have been real. And when they say, “I’ll still be here if something happens with us”. Bullshit, you’re only there till you remember you can have more fun without them, and you know it will hurt them a lot more to know you slept with that girl or boy and you moved on so quick, leaving behind a destroyed girl or boy who now has to go on knowing you never cared. From then on, everything thing goes downhill, they find out they have something they feared and they find someone to be happy with, but they only have eyes for you… Even if you did take away everything they had left in them to fight. Gah! Love is so ******** up, never love, alright kids?
I reckon we need a part of the brain that tells us it will be ok, and show us what we need to see in order for us to be really happy. But they didn’t leave us that, instead they divided the brain to other things, I’m sure they could of downsized one thing to add it in. It wouldn’t have taken up much room, but it is so important.
But anyways, this is just something I was thinking about and thought I’d type it out. Kind of makes me feel like I accomplished something by posting this.
Weird…
Flosscandy · Sat Oct 04, 2008 @ 01:09pm · 0 Comments |
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