...my character is all cutsy and innocent and clueless, but that's not how I want her to be. I wan't her to be serious, has a dark past, I want her to be able to wear gothic looking clothes and such at times and at others wear different clothes, but when someone decides something about my character they tend to keep it that way and I don't speek out in fear they'll say something like....that's too close to my character or yours can't be the (insert steryotype here) one because that's my character, but that's the way I've imagined her. I gave up alot of stuff about my character that I've wanted to keep but can't cus it's too like someone else....It gets me angry that I can't make my character like I want and I get told what I can and cannot do about my character. For example I am told my character has to be part of a realm...who said I ever agreed to realm areas. I was perfectly okay with earth. And everyone calls my character Saki-chan It's anerving...why can't that call me Sakura like everyone else gets there own choice of name....but me I'm Saki-chan and I don't like that it makes me seem like I'm the young one. Okay Mallie and Calli are bopth yoiunger and the call me Saki-chan....I don't know I just don't like feeling young and immature...I would much rather Sakura. I just want to be able to create my character with out all these people telling me what I can and can't do because my character is special to me and I can just have fun writing about here but if I have to stick to some one elses rules it takes away the fun. No one has a right to tell me I can't create what I wanto create just because they are similar. I guess it's just me. Because I can't express my feelings like everyone else I just kinda hide what I want to say because I'm scared what they might say....It's just hartd for me to express me feelings.
Ja ne ~Sakura
 Lovexlikexthexmovies · Mon Feb 07, 2005 @ 10:38pm · 1 Comments |
