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I can't stand this anymore!!! These unatural illnesses are driving me mad! No one should have to put up with this kind of mind exploding, gut wrenching, head splitting torture!!!
Three times in my whole life have I obtained this very same sickness...my body...ugh..it feels like my skin is trying to jump off my body.. it feels like somebody swung an axe into my head..it feels like I've been hit by a semi...I'm always cold...my nose is useless..my vision is murky..I've almost completely lost my hearing..and my voice...I'm always dizzy...and it all started two days ago..
I was leaning ove my bed to turn off my Radio..then I felt a pop in my stomach...I thought nothing of it...but then, I felt like I was gonna puke...the gross fact is that..when I did..blood came up..not much..but enough to nearly give me a heart attack...I managed to keep the blood down..until the next morining..I didn't feel like I was gonna blow groceries anymore..all I felt was..hell...literally a living hell..by that I mean all the discriptions I listed above...I'm afraid that one of these days...this very same damn thing will happen again...but I won't be able to write about it again...

If that is the case..then I only hope that before this thing happens another time..I am able to say good-bye to all of those who I keep close to my heart.
I just hope to god that theory isn't true....