I refuse to take this anymore...I told you I didnt want you to leave but you did anyway...now I see your true colors...the "true colors" you have been trying to show me all along...If I didnt love you so much I'd kill you and leave you dead so the whole world would see...fingerprints and all to let everyone know I did it and not shed a tear, but then again..I have felt this way so many times while I was with you so theres nothing new there...I'm not apologizing for anything...you dont deserve one from me...not now not ever do you deserve anything from me ever again! I did nothing but accept you, helped you as much as I can, dealt with your s**t, tried to be there for you when you were going through it, even went as far as give you money to get by because you have no place to live [which was a stupid move on my end because now I want my s**t now] and this is what I get? A bitter break up over a stupid a** question. What was the point of me even meetting you and getting involved with you as much as I did. I broke my own boundaries with you did things I would never do with anyone I have ever been with, thinking that I could trust you. I've told you things I've never told anyone before. I did these things because I thought I could trust you...but now after this I know I cant which means I could never get back with you after this. You showed me who you are...and I wont say it because I'll show you the mercy you never showed me for the entire year of our relationship because I'm that good of a person and if you dont see that then oh well. I wish I could rewind time...all the way to the begining...where you first sent me that friend request and instead of hitting "accept" I would hit "deny" then I wouldnt be going through this pain that I am going through now. I've stuck by you through everything...even when my family told me you were not good enough for me...I still stuck by you. I cant believe I fell for it and I hope the next b***h you dates treats you the same way you treated me...actually I know they will because karma is a b***h and what goes around comes around. Nothing will come out of me because all along I knew I couldnt trust you...you have too many ex's in the so called "past" and you have too many secrets. You werent the one for me and I dont think you'll be the one for any woman except for the ones who want to ******** you and leave you its funny speaking of ******** never ever come out with breaking up when I'm on my back with my legs over your shoulders...you dont talk about leaving me over this bullshit then....and I hope they ******** you...right in the a** where you ******** me and stab you in the back just like you did me then you can think of me. I cant go through this one more time...just for you to take me back then ******** me again. I'm done...I can do this anymore...I'm not sorry for anything...no remorse for you this time. I'm sick of this. I'm done sheding these tears over someone who pretended to be in love with me just to make love to me. I refused to keep these pieces of this broken heart like I did the last two times. I've hurt myself trying to fix this and I wont do it anymore. My feelings tell me that I still want you but they dont matter anymore because I dont deserve this s**t. I deserve better than this and if that means dating myself then thats hows its supposed to be...so expect nothing from me...my heart is frozen and will be for a long time. I refused to give to a man who gives nothing to me but a good physical connection. I'm brokenhearted but the pieces are flown away. I refuse to keep them.
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