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So...I guess I'll just start typing the stuff that seems to be on my mind right now...Everything wasn't so complicated in the beginning, it all made sense and I knew exactly what I wanted. Or so I thought. Turns out there was a change in plans in store for me and a couple other people. So that change of plans happened, and man changes we definetely got...Now everything I thought I had figured out in the beginning isn't the same. Like the fact that I don't love just one person, or the fact that I desperately want to move from where I'm at now, or even the fact that I have no idea what to do from here. Where am I supposed to go from here? What am I supposed to do now? Just sit around here and wait? Just be waiting? If I need to do that, then thats what it'll have to come to. I'd do anything for these guys, and I mean anything. I wish that I could fix all of this so that it made more sense then it does now, because everythings so confusing and complicated. But I guess things are always like that when there's real feelings involved....I kinda expected things to change, but not like this....Its like my entire world turned upside down and I'm trying to make everything right again. But thats another thing, who's to say whats wrong and right to do now? Who do you believe, and who's advice do you take? See? Like I said, its so confusing and I'm so damn lost that I can't really think of anything else except trying to figure things out. Maybe the reason I'm tryin to figure things out now is because I don't want to lose anyone who might be really close to me. I don't want to lose anyone that I care about, and that definetely includes these two guys that I'm definetely in love with....Guys I really don't know what to do, if you have anything to say, advice...Anything would probably help, even if it isn't advice, at least I know you care enough to want to talk to me about it....Thanks guys