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Yeah I'm crying again. Get over it. I was trying to explain why I gave my mother and Attitude about moing the lawn, not because of mowing it I have no problem with that, but for The fact that she was saying somthing about PJ mowing the lawn after I asked, Were she wanted it mowed. And she told me she didn't care any more. she told me she didn't give a s**t about me anymore. All that she's doing now is waiting for me and my brother to get out. She's never seeing my kids... She's never gonna see me again. and if she does it's though nene. She tells me I don't care about her? Then why the ******** am I crying so hard!? if I don't care why do I feel like killing my self after she says she don't care about me!? I tryed so hard to get everyones aprovle and now that I have a free mind she hates me? I have a job and school. I have stuff to do, so I'm sorry If I can't help all the time. but be a b***h if I try to help when I can.... all I do is get nagged now... bitching people telling me they don't care about me any more... I've been hearing it from everyone now. I have no one around here anymore... I only have a few people that I can barly speak to as is... I tryed calling steven but he's probably upset with somthing else right now so he shuts his phone off because he don't wanna talk, I understand that so I give hime his space. Jacob is busy alot now, so I'm lucky if I get to say hello on the comp. my brother Psy is there but I don't wanna upset him, PJ I rant to to much as is. Tiff is to conserned with other stuff to care, and everyone else... I don't wanna bother with.... wether not enough time to talk (because the comp is broken), or school... I'm so sick of being so alone. even when I'm sarounded by people my heart aches... Why! WHY ME!? I've done nothing but good my whole life! done nothing but follow the rules... what did I do!? Why can't somone save me...?
PLease save me...