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*sniffle*
yes i'm still upset and yes i'm still hurt, but i don't feel quite as bad now. i locked muhhself up in my room and thought about everything. first i thought about myself, did i really need this guy or was he more just because i lyked the attention. that answer came in loud and clear, i loved him... and that's what really hurt... but i built from there. i then thought, would i want this guy with me for always. not quite as clear. he was my boy, we had so many tymes together, but he was also unreliable, stubborn, and could be mean. at the tyme, i lyked these traits, they made him who he was, but i didn't think that's what i wanted for the rest of my lyfe. now i'm not saying i'm looking for the perfect guy, i lyke the ones who mess up big tyme... but i also know i need someone to count on... and i just couldn't do that with him.... i thought of a lot more things sitting in my room but anyone who reads this is probably sick of it already, so i'll leave it at that. just know that i no longer hate everything and while i'm not all "everything's fyyyne and this guy doesn't mean anything to me anymore" i'm not quite as pissed, just slightly depressed...
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