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My parents threw a party last night for my younger brother. Lots of people, lots of noise, lots of kids, no room to breathe, and nowhere to go. All these things make Ryoumon a VERY unhappy Dragon. I began to feel torn, stretched, and uneasy. Thank the Great Dragon that some of my friends were here, or else I might have lost it. But even they couldn't give me what I wanted. We left the house and went to the park for a while since I felt a little restless. I didn't understand why I felt so strange, I just wanted to disappear forever. I wanted to leave the world behind, I wanted it so badly that it hurt. It still hurts even now. Apparently, people think I'm too preoccupied with my own thoughts, too preoccupied with "unrealistic" longings. Who are they to call my dreams unrealistic? To make it worse, Kiokuya thought I was being depressed and asked me what was up. I lied. Just like I always do. I lied. I told him that nothing was up, and that I was just bored. There's nothing wrong, nothing's wrong with Ryoumon. I wanted everything to stop. I wanted it all to go away. To just blow up or something. I wanted it all to just vanish. The one thing I didn't want, the one thing I will never want, was to stay here. I don't want to be here anymore. This place is killing me, everyday, and I have to just pretend that nothing's wrong. It isn't fair that I have to live this way, if you can even call it living.

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