To be read in conjunction with the last 2 entries.
Do you know what it's like to hear a 20 year old man cry? It's not fun. I just gave the ultimatum of my life. I hate confrontation. I try to avoid it at all costs. It wasn't pretty, but it had to be done.
I sent the poem off and he read it. He called me soon after because I asked him to. The focus of what he said next, as I had predicted, was on the two lines near the end of the poem. *sighs* [lots of crying and talking later], the space of time between 12:30pm and 1pm is when we decided to come up with a solution. No, we arent breaking up. Neither of us want that. There's no purposeful hurting going on, so that'd just worsen the problem. Instead, I proposed that he take a couple of days to think to himself about what's been going on. He apologized to be for having to take a couple of days to himself, but if that's what he needs, so be it. I proposed it. I told him that if he thinks that he's thought enough, he can call me at any point before the 2 days are up. But until then, we arent going to be talking to each other. It would defeat the purpose of taking a thinking period. With that, we said our 'I Love Yous' and took around 5 minutes to say goodbye before we got off the phone. It's going to be a hard couple of days for me.
I feel like there's an empty pit in my chest. A huge one. I can physically feel it. It's like a weight. The distance between us is not making it any better. I havent seen him for a little over 3 months. (school) I just hope things are better in the end. 3 years of memories and firsts is not going down the drain because of some idiot that decided that they wanted to ruin my (and obviously Mike's) life. I wont let it.
~Yuzi
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