As I was taking a shower, I realized how important I am.
Coincidence:
I was in a rut of where i was going in life. Questioning if I can make it to what i want to do. I look at the level of others in the art field, and they seem so far away. Hundred leagues across the galaxy distance from my point of drawing and art.
Then I finally get out of my bed, depressed.....but when I took a refreshing warm shower. I start to realize, I am too far at all. I am a home, I don't pay the mortgage......I don't have work, but I am still alive and have food. I dry up and get dressed, then i notice all my art supplies. I got more then half the stuff for free. These things would usually add up to hundreds. Because that i live next door to an old artist, he gave it to me. I got a aunt that given me so much art supplies as well. Then another aunt, with more supplies. I am so lucky to have had the chance to work in a internship program that pays. They gave me the chance to really experience things. Just like my meditation teacher has said, "As soon as you focus on your goals, the world just seems to fall into place."
It is not a coincidence all these things happened to me. I need to give it my all, to take advantage.
It's amazing, and now this feeling hatching in my body makes me feel alive again.
Martial Arts:
Just recently I went to a friend's(Cosmic Alchemist) Dojo. I got to see what they did. It was awsome, cause it really got me into it. I just wanted to get up and start excersising again like I used to in my last Dojo.
It's wierd cause seeing how rough some of the sparring can be made me want the pain. The feeling of being punched or kicked. I wanted to get into it. It was a revelation that I really need to get some seriouse excercise.
Questions of the day:
Do you sometimes get an Epiphany that lightens the load or puts a smile on your face?
-What was that thought?
Do you believe in destiny?
Have you ever watched something that just got you excited (not Horny)?
 taikerr · Thu May 05, 2005 @ 07:34am · 1 Comments |
