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5th grade. That was over 7 years ago and still I remember it. So many things happened. I fell in love, I made new friends, but more importantly
There was an incident.
Something happened that has since haunted me to this day. Ive told the story to close friends of mine because just thinking of it still gives me chills. I saw something unnatural and it put into me a fear like nothing I had ever felt. Come to think of it, to this DAY terror like that hasn't gripped me. All the factors of that night combined with what I actually saw opened my mind to new possibilities.
Are ghosts actually real? Whats their purpose?
Was that really a ghost?
What kind of horrors are really out there lurking out of sight?
It was from that night my almost irrational fear of ghosts was born. Movies like the Grudge or The Ring have terrified me even when I realize they are awful movies. Its the imagery, the concept. The fact I saw SOMETHING that could have been like that.
Or did I? The human mind is capable of many things. Often times I can wake up from a nightmare and psyche myself out so bad that I lay awake watching my ceiling fan spin for hours at a time. So did I actually see that thing...or did my mind create it?
When I'm alone my imagination usually runs wild, I think of every conceivable scary thing that could happen. I hate mirrors, I close all open doors in my house, and every blind and curtain over a window is shut just because I'm afraid Ill see something in one of them.
And the greatest fear is one day Ill think, "Wouldn't it be terrifying if this happened?" And then it does. No shock music, no pause, just what I was dreading. Or that Ill see that same thing I did all those years ago.
People have said the scariest things are those that you don't see, that leave it open to the realm of your OWN imagination.
I haven't seen many things since then, and I have an overactive imagination. Id have to agree with that statement.